Strangely, I've recently been very adept in estimating my levels of fatigue just by looking at my schedule for the day. Most of the time, its helped me make certain decisions based on my limits, but a lot of random energy sapping things do happen spontaneously that some times drain me more than usual.
Things that do that to me include people bumping to me on the train, or me observing something impolite, offensive and downright wrong happening around. For example a T-shirt worn by someone with vulgarities on it, or NS men refusing to give their seats over to pregnant women etc etc. It sounds weird, but these things really really drain me of strength.
And of course there are things that help replenish my energy. Like music, being by myself, and surprisingly, repetitive work. (Like stapling sheets of paper or cutting up Easter invites to name some things of that sort.)
Sunday was one of those days where I expected my energy level to be adequate enough to function for the rest of the day, but of course, unexpected things do happen, especially on public transport. And having to wait a pretty long time on a comfortable couch in a well ventilated room helped increase the fatigue to unbearable levels. Apologies to the rest of the YE ADLs for not being able to concentrate well.
On my way home on one of the days I was sorta thinking about all the invites to social gatherings and stuff like that I've been extended, and how I haven't been to any one of those things for ages. And I guess at that point of time I realized that I have truly grown up, because the knowledge of your own limits is one of the things you can only get with true maturity, and a true understanding of yourself. That is one of the things I'm starting to take pride of in my life.
Of course, with it comes envy, because when I look around at the friends I have it seems their physical and mental capacity against weariness is a lot more than what I have. But all the more, I see that I am unique and special, and I praise God for that.
So... Apologies if I haven't been out with a lot of you, or have refused your invitations. Please understand that I get tired easily, especially in crowded areas. And also that after a days work, I'd rather have alone time than spend it with a group of people (though I love you guys and all), because after all, the introvert in me dominates almost my entire being.
Things that do that to me include people bumping to me on the train, or me observing something impolite, offensive and downright wrong happening around. For example a T-shirt worn by someone with vulgarities on it, or NS men refusing to give their seats over to pregnant women etc etc. It sounds weird, but these things really really drain me of strength.
And of course there are things that help replenish my energy. Like music, being by myself, and surprisingly, repetitive work. (Like stapling sheets of paper or cutting up Easter invites to name some things of that sort.)
Sunday was one of those days where I expected my energy level to be adequate enough to function for the rest of the day, but of course, unexpected things do happen, especially on public transport. And having to wait a pretty long time on a comfortable couch in a well ventilated room helped increase the fatigue to unbearable levels. Apologies to the rest of the YE ADLs for not being able to concentrate well.
On my way home on one of the days I was sorta thinking about all the invites to social gatherings and stuff like that I've been extended, and how I haven't been to any one of those things for ages. And I guess at that point of time I realized that I have truly grown up, because the knowledge of your own limits is one of the things you can only get with true maturity, and a true understanding of yourself. That is one of the things I'm starting to take pride of in my life.
Of course, with it comes envy, because when I look around at the friends I have it seems their physical and mental capacity against weariness is a lot more than what I have. But all the more, I see that I am unique and special, and I praise God for that.
So... Apologies if I haven't been out with a lot of you, or have refused your invitations. Please understand that I get tired easily, especially in crowded areas. And also that after a days work, I'd rather have alone time than spend it with a group of people (though I love you guys and all), because after all, the introvert in me dominates almost my entire being.
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