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Well... Its my birthday, thank you all for the texts and the fb msgs. My 21st doesn't feel any much more special. But one thing that I'm aware of is how much stronger I'm getting, in faith, in controlling my emotions, in relationships and most importantly, living this life for God. So here's one of my favourite Delirious songs, because it means a lot to me, and is real to me especially at this very moment. At this moment when I can really say I truly love Him from the depths of my heart. Browse through my mixpod and you'll find it. Stronger - Delirious? We're getting stronger everyday, We're getting braver in every way, Hallelujah here we come. We're getting stronger everyday, Push through the rains that fall our way, Hallelujah here we come. We're much stronger when we're one, Hallelujah here we come. Oh, I love You from the depths of my heart, And nothing here will tear us apart. Everything's beautiful with You, Everything's beautiful,

Phew bidding is done! If the cards play right these are the modules I'll be doing: Intro to Psychology Research and Statistical Methods Japanese 1 Asia and the Modern World Intro to Social Work Here we go!

Well, its now amazingly close to the start of school. Its been about 8 months of inactivity in terms of something compulsory for my future, and its almost difficult to break out of this because I've really enjoyed not studying or doing any form of official work too much. But really excited about what I'm gonna learn and experience in uni. Loads of decisions to make, starting on thursday with the bidding of modules. Thinking of joining VCF (Varsity Christian Fellowship) for their bidding party on that day, and getting church people to go with me. And further on, probably have to choose which clubs and societies I'll be joining. I think I'll probably join something music related to improve my skills, and its something I really love, or perhaps something Japanese related, but definitely I'll be in one of the Christian societies. Decisions decisions. Despicable Me! Watched it last Sunday with my cousins and Darren late at night. Enjoyed it thoroughly... To tell the trut

Looks like loads of people have already moved to tumblr... Aww feeling a little lonely here in the blogger blogosphere. Well, this platform of blogger has been around for ages, and its the first one I've started out with... Somehow losing all those archives is making me not switch to another permanent blog elsewhere. Then again... Reminds me of all the changes that I've never made. Facebook profile pics , msn address, email account, gaming nick, old notes and cards from friends, old piano and guitar books etc have been kept for such a long time. Just shows how much I treasure my memories... For fear of them fading away I've kept these things close to me. Its strange how bad memories stay much longer than good ones... But to remind myself of the good things I've got this habit of keeping the old stuff. Each time I reread those old notes, letters, blog posts and what not, its a reminder of how far I've come. Feeling pretty old right now. Mentally mostly, as if I'm

Something amazing happened during SYC today that I really thank God for... I've gotten the gift of wisdom on a few occasions from the Holy Spirit before, but I've never used it for someone with other people around before. The conditions were just so amazing, and though I didn't feel anything supernatural like a rush of electricity down my spine or anything like that, but I knew what I said was definitely from God... Nothing like that could have come off the top of my head like that. It was simply awesome. Really thankful to God for that experience, despite me being a sinner and not being perfectly holy, it just goes to show that as long as you're willing God will be able to work through you in wondeful ways. Another thing I've realised from SYC today is how detached I've become from this world... It feels as if I'm so different from everyone else that I've become rather... Inhuman. If I needed to give up anything in my life right now besides my family I

Right now finishing off preparation for cell on saturday, and for the talk on wisdom on sunday. It's going pretty smoothly, except that I've forgotten some of the details that I've excluded from the current slides. Trying my best to recall... But my memory isn't helping me. Oh well just have to wait and pray for it to come back. Pretty much ready though. Its been awhile since I've been this excited to teach something... The previous time was at ID retreat which is already sometime ago. A little jittery but I'm sure everything will be fine, because He'll be the one speaking and not me.

Well for the weekend I was given pretty much a lot of reponsibility. With my mom and grandma in Vietnam and my dad taking care of my grandpa, I've been tasked to take care of the twins, although they don't actually need a lot of my guidance when it comes to eating, bathing, sleeping and such. Just buying the meals, driving them around, and looking after the car. Reluctant to go for outings because of that... Sorry Jon. Haha and then now its my turn to take care of my grandpa, so I'm with him at my grandparents place, just chilling, using my aunt's laptop (she's in Vietnam too), and just pretty much keeping him company. My dad has flown off for work for 2 days, and the twins are alone at home, but they'll manage haha. I know it seems simple and stuff, but this is pretty much the first time this much reponsibility has been thrust in my hands. I enjoy it, but at the same time its pretty daunting. After all, after God family is my main priority, and to be given such

Today was my first ever ever solo driving experience! And it feels just great to be free without anybody giving me directions... And first time I've driven without my dad or mom in the car... I prefer them to be there. At least they can control when my bros start singing all those random korean songs and when they start spouting random nonsense. Its funny yes, but it gets irritating. I never thought I'd say this, but I wouldn't mind spending an entire day in a car... Not driving around but just being inside resting on the soft cushions, listening to my music and just observing people as they pass by... I suppose part of me is just longing for a peaceful, simple life. No need for all that awful paper chasing... Just chill and peace yo. But definitely not in a military vehicle, that's for sure.

Gah its the second day in a row I've been waking up at wee hours in the morning and not being able to get back to sleep. I suppose its a side effect of thinking too much about stuff... Well the theme for youth sunday yesterday for me was Succession. It was pretty apt that the QT I did for the day, as well as pastor Jo's message was along the same lines. It got me thinking real real hard about Gihon, and the things I'd love to do for them. I've given myself around 3-4 years more in YE, and to make the best use of it would be good stewardship! =) My all time fave anime would be Naruto, and its because one of the themes I relate to and find very real would be the one of succession. In the same way Naruto and his friends have learnt various skills, jutsus and life lessons, we've sort of done the same ever since we've been in YE. Looking at how far Naruto's come: From a wilful kid only able to do simple jutsu to becoming a pillar of strength for his village, able

Watching Gintama now... Its designed for anime buffs like me, with allusions to many other anime series. Enjoying it thoroughly, and highly recommended for other like minded anime supporters! The story's about the japanese feudal era with a twist... Aliens called Amanto have invaded it and changed it into a futuristic sort of place, whilst still letting humans live and run free. Its a mix of loads of random comedy mashed into one nice anime! Thumbs up! Here's a pic. Well, my birthday will be here soon, and truth be told I'm wasn't really very psyched about it. To me it'd have been like just any other day... At least that was until I was talking to Regina online. She says some really mature things for her age. About how it was the day 21 years ago that God brought me safely to this earth, to become the person who I am right now. That thought just blew my mind, and I guess I'm looking forward to my birthday now. And now I see others birthdays in a whole new light