BenLow's blog

It's been quite some time since I last posted, apologies for that once again. I've been trying my best to get used to working life in two ways: dealing with physical fatigue and also dealing with my emotions of helping people in need. It's been difficult but ironically I'm managing the latter much better than the former. I used to have a hard time distancing myself emotionally from the people I'm trying to help. As an INFJ can't help feeling for the people and wanting the best for them, even to the point of thinking of them even when I'm not working. Physically its been tiring because I'm not used to the work week kind of thing, and I've got many things to do in the weekdays after work like practices, meetings etc. Still trying my best but it's proving not so easy! I can see why people lose their way to God when they start working. To me I see a path of darkness laid before me and I have to do my best to shine the light in the darkness and pove

Its taken me so long to finally properly settle down in my new job, and its now been 6 weeks in and counting! I must say I'm enjoying my time at work, although its filled with heart wrenching moments for the sake of some of the people I meet, and mixed in with a couple of stressful cases that need thorough hand holding, I must say this job is everything that I'd dreamed of doing. I never thought that on my first try I'd get a job which fit my personality, liking and abilities closely, with good superiors, colleagues and environment. All this I have to give thanks to God for. When I asked my superior why I was chosen she just said I had the passion, and they wanted to give me a try... It was then it dawned on me how fortunate my circumstances were. And in retrospect, I got my new job whilst YE was toned down in terms of youth week... The timing was just too perfect, giving me time to get used to the job before YE picked up. And once again I learn the true meaning of Matth

Ok ok once again I've left it late to blog and apologies for that! Amidst all the hustle and bustle of life its pretty tough to find some time to sit down, reflect about it properly and concoct a good post. So I've officially gotten a job in the ministry of social and family development as an asst. manager of social assistance, and I'm so happy to have gotten a job in which I can help those in need. This job search experience holds a very special meaning for me, and showed me that indeed if we do seek the kingdom first, all these things will be added unto us! For me I chose to honour God by being sincere, open and upfront about myself, and choosing to do that gave me favour in the eyes of the interviewers and the job. I can't help but praise God because He's shown me His presence in my life and that by choosing Him first, He blesses abundantly. And He's also chosen to honour my decision in life to give my all to ministry, forsaking my desires to get internship

Well the thing that's been occupying my time ever since uni has ended is the carnival! So here's the details: Church of the Good Shepherd 2 Dundee Road 31st May, 10am-6pm I'll be in charge of the NERF shooting stall so do come down and support if you can! For YE stuffs the next important thing will be finding a camp venue, which will prove hard at this time hmm but shall try my best! Besides that some updates on the employment front: so far I'm scheduled for an interview for the Youth Guidance Officer position at MSF on Friday at 10am, and this will be my first interview in quite some time! I hope I'll do well for it. I do have the passion for youth, but I'm afraid that my lack of experience with at-risk youth will go against me. Nevertheless, I'll just try my best and let God do the rest! Linked to that I've also been trying to contact people in MSF to ask about possible chances to volunteer at the Boys Home, and I hope that will help me underst

So I can finally write a blog post after a long and arduous journey through the last year of uni life. Boy was the last year of it so distracting with drawing me away from God. Just thinking back leaves a rather sour taste in my mouth when I should instead be tasting the sweetness of victory over this phase of my life. Oh well... The last exam ended yesterday, and I decided to leave quick because I really dislike goodbyes... Whilst I was on the way home I decided to be more proactive about maintaining my friendships I've gotten from uni, so I'll do just that! The other exciting thing was playing drums for main service for the first time on Sunday... To be honest it was nerve wracking and I've never been so tense whilst playing an instrument in a while. And only God knows where I learnt how to play drums because I've never done it before. I can only attribute that to God's grace, Him knowing I need some encouragement by His empowerment. I thank God that things went

It's pretty unusual and atypical for me, but over the past 2-3 weeks I've been living under a cloud of oppression, and I can't help but think its spiritual. Today with just some words of life from Andrew, it was lifted and somehow my vision was clear again. The past 2-3 weeks the burden of the future was very real to me. I was facing the end of my university life, with most of my friends already with a job or interviews, me thinking about the future. Essentially the problems I talked about in my return post on April 2nd... And I thank God for today He broke through my darkness and touched me. This darkness had led me almost to despair in my service toward Him, thinking that perhaps the time was ripe for me to move on. A week plus or so ago God told me whilst I was running that it was time to be urgent, to quickly take active steps to inspire the youth because time was limited. In that cloud of darkness, I interpreted things wrongly... I thought that this message was speci

Over the past two nights haven't been sleeping well and I'm not quite sure why... It's a rather rare thing because I usually wake up at least feeling rested. But if there's one thing I'm learning over the past few weeks is that the spiritual is nearer than you think! With Vanessa getting to experience God in the supernatural I've been exposed to a whole new world of interesting revelation, and although I'm not as sensitive to it I'm glad my other half is so that I can see the fullness of God's kingdom on this earth. One more thing to give thanks for! So the main purpose of this post is to talk about the various leisure stuff I've picked up as a distraction from work and all that kind of stuff. The first is anime as usual, and one of my favourite genres has always been murder mysteries, with Kindaichi being one of the anime I've watched since young! The new season of that is out, and I'm also watching Detective Conan as well, which has a

It's been ages since I've posted here, and I must say the me now and the me from all the way back in August of last year has been facing a whole different set of problems that were far from my mind... And hence I feel the need to revive this blog, so that my thoughts can be collected and my tendency for introspection be rekindled. Life is hard. That's the one reality that I currently am facing right now, and its plain for me to see that the life ahead will be filled with difficulties that I now may not be able to comprehend. Marriage is one of those prospects, and specifically the monetary aspect of all of that... I've always thought that my faith can stand all of that, but it isn't as easy as it seems with the looming need to consider everything with faith-less eyes, to count the costs and weigh the future. I'm hoping to keep away from that, and its tough. Now I see why many fall away from the faith at my stage of life, or at least their other priorities sw