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Well I'm sifting through our old collection of PS1 games, remnants of the past... Certain ones that we found too easy, some we couldn't complete, and others we found utterly boring. Those were good whilst they were usable and entertaining, but now its goodbye. Unfortunately everything is ephemeral but God, but well that's life. Just came back from driving my parents to the doctor. My dad's down with a pretty bad cough by the sounds of it... And my mom's got high BP and headaches to boot. Its gonna be a tough chinese new year for our family in some ways I suppose. And perhaps I'm next in line to get sick? =S On Sunday was the 4th time in 5 weeks I played for main. But of course it was enjoyable once again. I do need a break from it however... Shall refuse the next week if it comes around. Lastly, steamboat with Gihon was thoroughly enjoyable... Can't wait till March when cell begins! =D I'm really glad that they helped out with cleaning up, washing the di...

Well, finally have gotten to meet or talk to all my old psych friends that took PL1101E and PL2131... Turns out that absolutely none of them are majoring in psych in the end out of the 4 I've gotten to know rather well. How sad. Oh wells we'll still keep in contact... Due to today's tutorials I've found a couple more psych friends, and for that I give thanks. Have been hanging around the NUS Year 1 Navigators, joined their group discussion on tuesday before my jap lecture. Really enjoyed myself... The people there are really sincere, committed to being a good Christian, and strong in the word. Really like it there so I'll probably join them on alternate weeks. Well, at this stage, I'm about a week or 5 working days ahead of my uni schedule in readings, tutorial preparations and such. And because of CNY, I believe the gap will only increase, leaving me with a good buffer that will last pretty long. Thank God that my J trait is really really strong. After watching...

An update on the week that has just passed... It was tiring of course, but a lot more bearable than the previous week. No really definitive moments after my tuesday post... But I'm getting used to all the lecturers and their styles. A couple of simple things that happened along the way: 1. Wednesday: Went for Roman's teaching chapter 4-5. 2. Thursday: Went for YE Meeting 3. Friday: Lead in SYC for the topic on Passion 4. Saturday: After YE went to my cousin's new house, The Pinnacle @ Duxton 5. Sunday: Played for main Out of these few I'll highlight the last 3. The teaching on passion was exceptionally beneficial for me, definitely facilitating the discussion on certain topics you learn the most about it. I suppose I'm not a very passionate person, but after thinking about it I shall try to be as passionate as I can be for everything that I do, even though I don't outwardly show it. Its only fitting as a way to show my love for God for everything He's placed...

And so I'm more or less recovered. I suppose solitude really is essential for healing in my case. I'm ready to face the challenges coming! Well, today has been a real surprise, with me meeting people I know all over. First was Jamie from my psych class last sem, offered to give her my old jap textbooks. Then next was Sam, who I haven't met for awhile. If you guys remember he's my sec3-4 then JC class friend who I play Yugioh cards with and did a gamebook writing project with in RI. Next was Jon Li! That was a nice surprise, meeting him in school. Finally QQ! Who walked past me without seeing me haha. If you guys don't remember her she's my Guitar Ensemble friend! Like the previous semester, meeting all these friends are a reminder of how far I've come. And that I'll keep on progressing. Despite my mistakes for sure I'll improve, and come out a better person. So the events of today so far have erased my the guilt of Sunday. And so now I'm waiting ...

Saturday... I was really happy with the group of people I had dinner with. The periodic silence was really comforting. Looking forward to being with that group more often. Such an interesting composition of people. Pastor William was really good at the YE session. Very clear, memorable. I must say I was pleasantly surprised. Definitely caught something there which I'll remember in times to come. Today's sermon was good as well. Definitely learning stuff at all the sessions I'm going to, which is a delight. Looking forward to meeting my cell once again at discussions at YE. Nothing else I should blog about. Some things are better left unsaid.

Yesterday was an insanely tough day... Never has a day driven me so much to the brink of exhaustion. It was a combination of really unfortunate circumstances that led to it, rarely do so many minor sources of tiredness all come in a row like yesterday. First was the issue of tiredness from previous days. Still hadn't recovered from saturday's last minute worship session preparations, sunday's playing for worship, monday's worship prac, tuesday's lecture and to add to all the lack of emotional/mental rest was the serve inauguration, which was a source of problems that I'll talk about later. Second was the huge amount of money I'd spent on uni books. Almost 180 dollars in total. Really not accustomed to spending so much in one shot. Its almost against my values to have spent that much. Almost made me wonder how I got over it in the first semester. It made the weariness a lot worse, because I'm a value oriented person. Just infringing one of them makes me f...

So the new school semester has opened... On a tiring note. 4 consecutive days of not being able to be at home for dinner is pretty sad. With evenings packed its gonna be pretty tough for the next week or so. Pretty soon perhaps my only free evening will be mondays, and that means no chance to join clubs again. Oh wells. So far lectures have been fine... I've only been to 2, and everything's been basic. Now waiting for my jap one, which will definitely be the most intense of the bunch. But also the one I'm looking forward to, because of the friends I'll be taking it with. So monday evening was prac for SERVE, today's evening lecture, tomorrow will be SERVE inauguration, thursday's worship leader training, friday is SYC, saturday is YE and Sunday service. The next time I'll get rest in the evening will be on saturday, sunday or monday. Though there are no lessons on friday itself too. I'm getting too old for a schedule like this hahaa. At least...