It's been quite some time since I last posted, apologies for that once again. I've been trying my best to get used to working life in two ways: dealing with physical fatigue and also dealing with my emotions of helping people in need. It's been difficult but ironically I'm managing the latter much better than the former. I used to have a hard time distancing myself emotionally from the people I'm trying to help. As an INFJ can't help feeling for the people and wanting the best for them, even to the point of thinking of them even when I'm not working.
Physically its been tiring because I'm not used to the work week kind of thing, and I've got many things to do in the weekdays after work like practices, meetings etc. Still trying my best but it's proving not so easy! I can see why people lose their way to God when they start working. To me I see a path of darkness laid before me and I have to do my best to shine the light in the darkness and poverty I see before me. It is really eye-opening and every day I'm reminded to cherish the good things I have that many others want but do not have. My work is very rewarding but very sobering at the same time...
Beyond that I've cut down on a lot of my to-do-list activities as my time is limited, and piano and running have gone out the window. The thing that allows me lots of stress relief is anime, and I'm now watching Katekyo Hitman Reborn! Enjoying it thoroughly! So yup only one thing I'm relaxing with currently.
The most recent YE camp Deus Ex Familia ended, and I'm very satisfied with the outcome, as it showed how much they have grown spiritually. In a way I feel like Moses who has come out of the wilderness and am almost at the brink of seeing the Israelites enter the promised land. The one thing I'm not sure is whether I'll be exactly like Moses and not be able to enter together with them or I will be able to persevere. My tired body is telling me to rest in God and let go of some things but I am still wavering. Will seek counsel and God's voice in the situation. However one thing that I'm proud of doing is to have helped out in YE until this moment and ran the good race. I hope that I can declare like Paul for people to follow my example, as I have followed Jesus.
Physically its been tiring because I'm not used to the work week kind of thing, and I've got many things to do in the weekdays after work like practices, meetings etc. Still trying my best but it's proving not so easy! I can see why people lose their way to God when they start working. To me I see a path of darkness laid before me and I have to do my best to shine the light in the darkness and poverty I see before me. It is really eye-opening and every day I'm reminded to cherish the good things I have that many others want but do not have. My work is very rewarding but very sobering at the same time...
Beyond that I've cut down on a lot of my to-do-list activities as my time is limited, and piano and running have gone out the window. The thing that allows me lots of stress relief is anime, and I'm now watching Katekyo Hitman Reborn! Enjoying it thoroughly! So yup only one thing I'm relaxing with currently.
The most recent YE camp Deus Ex Familia ended, and I'm very satisfied with the outcome, as it showed how much they have grown spiritually. In a way I feel like Moses who has come out of the wilderness and am almost at the brink of seeing the Israelites enter the promised land. The one thing I'm not sure is whether I'll be exactly like Moses and not be able to enter together with them or I will be able to persevere. My tired body is telling me to rest in God and let go of some things but I am still wavering. Will seek counsel and God's voice in the situation. However one thing that I'm proud of doing is to have helped out in YE until this moment and ran the good race. I hope that I can declare like Paul for people to follow my example, as I have followed Jesus.
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