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Drained

Ouch... Super Drained. Tired. I feel that I'm not getting enough sleep. I think I'll stop BLOGing in the morning for a few days. Its affecting my QT too. Its affecting my church time too. In fact, its affecting everything. Haha. So this is the last post I'll make in the mornings. Until I get my rest. Well, I feel the only time I'm happy is in church. Although I'm doing well else where, all I feel is a sense of nothingness. I'm not happy or at peace with myself. Not at school, not at home, not at practice. Just wish Sundays would last forever.

Well... Half day today! Haha. Assembly then PE. So slack! Thanks to Rachel, Mel and Ernest who have talked to me this week. Although I was tired, I enjoyed our conversations.

Found something called RPG Maker XP, thanks to Eugene. It helps people make their own RPG Game! Thats real fun. Well, anybody interested?

Haha... Well, wnat to know the reason why I BLOG and do QT in the mornings? You'll probably laugh when you hear the reason. Haha. Tell you guys in later posts... Well, part three of the studies on myself is coming soon. This time its about personality. Haha.

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