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Death's Face

321 days to ORD!

It may seem kinda redundant to count down day by day, but to us ns people it really means a lot. And considering the speed that everything is passing by... It may help us feel a lot better.

Apologies to all... Doesn't feel like Christmas to me at all. Yup there are parties being thrown here and there, theres a church service to attend. But I'm totally not in the mood. I couldn't even get a chance to get decent presents for anyone. You could even say I didn't even take any initiative to do so.

I could give a couple of excuses saying I've got little time cos of book in timings and such, but the fact is I could've just rushed out one of the days and just bought some simple gifts of chocolates from west mall or something. This time, money isn't the issue, I'm just not feeling like it.

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Went to my mom's side aunt's funeral. Liver cancer. Yeah, thats what took her. For the first time in a long time I felt a tinge of sadness. NS kinda numbs the senses/emotions I guess. For some reason you'll never feel sad about your own predicaments, but when it comes to others pain its different.

I mean, she was nothing like what I remembered her to be. A sunken face, wrinkled and hollow looked back at me when I stared into the coffin. I couldn't recognise her at all. So thats what death looks like, was the first thought that hit me when I saw it. Coupled with the indescribable sadness, it all seemed surreal.

We sat there for a couple of hours...

My cousin talked to my mum about my future prospects... Seems like she's got a few prepositions. Theres a medical missionary university course in KL that I'm quite interested in. May go for it... After all, its killing two birds with one stone. And I can still be back home everyday, albeit late. But at this point of time I just don't know. Theres also a theology and psychology double degree in australia thats possible, but I'm not too keen on that.

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Now that I'm done with Lucky Star, going for Chobits, then My Hime/Otome, then Rosario Vampire. Have all of them downloaded and ready. Have taken notice of one of Naruto's songs: Nakushita Kotoba (Lost Words) by No Regret Life for its lyrics, mainly. Probably the next song I'll learn.

I realise that I've not been updating about soccer. It all boils down to the mood once again. EPL is starting to become a draw fest each and every week.

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