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Gamble

It's been quite some time since the last post, and time has just been ticking on. I'm entering a new phase in my career in a new office at Queenstown. Things are good on the work front, as I've been given a vote of confidence and responsibilities despite my young age. Eventually I'll be getting re-designated as a Team Leader, and looking forward to it! It's a sign that I am well versed enough in the work.

Another part of my life that has been looking up - playing keys/bass for the newly created Saturday Service for church. I feel that spiritually things are well despite the turmoil of last year. A great sense of fulfillment and meaning whenever I do that, as if I'm back to my roots.

In terms of leisure the usual things: 

1. Soccer - Late night matches (back to the good old days)

2. PS4 - Trying to finish off Tales of Berseria, moving on to Assassins Creed: Origin thereafter

3. Anime - Still watching the good old stuff that is still going on (One Piece, Yu-Gi-Oh, Boruto etc.). Adding in some new variety once in a while, and gonna watch Kakegurui soon

4. Marvel - All the good stuff, am up to date with watching all old and current series

5. Running Man - Up to date with that too, it's been such a blast watching the new eps

One of the Marvel series I've enjoyed thoroughly is Loki. It's quite heartwarming because in a way it is the story of someone overcoming his failings and insecurities to turn his life around. See some parallels in a way. Most striking were Loki's statements about his view on love: "Love is a dagger. It's a weapon to be wielded far away or up close. You can see yourself in it. It's beautiful."

Interesting words, giving an insight into the psyche of the character. After what I've experienced in life, sad to say but the truth is I see love as an expensive gamble. In a sense I bet 9 years of my life, a lot of finances, blood sweat and tears but lost horribly. One thing that is different though is human love is imperfect, but there is perfect love out there and that's what I'm looking for. With that, there is no loss, and there lies the hope in life I still have.

 

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