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Dear Ben Low, how are you ToDaY.?

Feeling quite blessed now, thanks to a couple of things that have happened over the past few days. Its a mixture of many things from many sources, but its made me feel really needed, and really happy.

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S03H

Situation #1

On Friday Chris brought his guitar down to school to practise for his shooting 'graduation'... There were a couple of songs that he and his friends from shooting wanted to perform, and he asked me for help.

These were the songs:
Flying Without Wings ~ Westlife
Best In Me ~ Blue
My Wish ~ Rascal Flatts

We went to the mini canteen for lunch after classes had ended, and he let me listen to the MP3s and I figured them out for him. Spent quite some time, and eventually finished at about 3 something. I felt real happy cos I was able to use the skills I've been given to contribute wherever I can. As a result I felt needed, I felt that God had used me in a great way for the sake of my dear friends.

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YE

Situation #2

Worship practise was on the next day in the morning. Initially me and Tim had planned to meet early to do the one-on-one mentoring thing, but since practise was moved one hour earlier, we decided to meet on another date.

Instead, we came early to practise for youth service the next day. We spent some time choosing the songs to suit the entire congregation, and I was really glad that there seemed to be no stress for everyone. (Perhaps only Aunty K was stressed out) I realised while I played the songs, there was this weird feeling within me, this relaxed feeling that came only when I played for worship.

God was clearly using me, using my skills once again, like He always did. I had never felt that weird feeling that intensely before, but I was glad that I felt it, cos it reminded me that even though I was unworthy, he still could use me in such a wonderful way.

Situation #3

Aunty K had called me to prepare a testimony regarding how God had blessed me using YE. Well initially I had a long script prepared, which I tried to memorise. To tell the truth ever since the time I went up to speak to the congregation for the first time (when announcing for a church camp long ago), I never expected to have to do it again.

On Sunday, when it was time for me to go up and share, I brought up my script with me, the things that I had rehearsed over and over in my head... Were gone. Instead, when I stepped up onto stage, a feeling came over me and I shared from my heart. The things I had to say did follow the points in my script vaguely, but the content was sorta different. Only after did I realise that God had used me once again. The feeling was wonderful.

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Random

Situation #4

I was really surprised that God blessed me once again, especially since I had fallen sick. While I was at home, drinking down huge cups of water, taking strepsils and pills in the hall, my phone rang like crazy. Turns out that a couple of my friends from class mass SMSed me a message...

Sam Wong ~ Dear
Leonard ~ Ben
Kevin ~ Low
Charissa ~ how
Lawrence ~ are
Chris ~ you
Alan ~ ToDaY.?

The feeling flooded back into me again. God had used me to bless my friends, and in turn they were blessing me back with that string of messages. It made my day.

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The realisation that each and everyday I was being used in wonderful ways that I could not imagine dawned upon me. Even in the little acts I did, not only the huge contributions, had God used me to bless everyone around me. To see the fruits of all that come full circle, all because of my willingness to be used, was the greatest gift ever God could give me.

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