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Cheer Up Guys!

Yoz... Soccer Module was fun today but I wasn't in the mood for it I guess. I didn't score anything and did nothing constructive to help my team at all.

Goal Tally: 8 goals in 12 games in 4 sessions

Wells, I guess seeing everyone so sad has made me kinda worried for everyone. The feeling of loss has already subsided for some, but in comes in a more powerful emotion, the emotion of sadness.

The first and youngest I ever felt extremely sad was when I was around 6, when my grandmother on my mums side died. She was a really nice person, and although my chinese was really lousy, and she spoke only chinese or dialect, we had a special bond that no one else knew. Until now, I'm really not sure what that bond was... Well, she passed away due to a haemorrhage in the brain after complications from a stroke. I saw her fight with death in the bed where she stayed in Bedok. At first I didn't understand what was going on. The concept of death was kinda foreign to me. To see her pass away with my very own eyes was really saddening. On the day of the funeral, my knees felt really week, and my mom had to bring me up to my grandmother's house to rest. There, I cried until there were no more tears. No one was beside me, and no one else knows this except me. I felt like all the sadness had all come out like a river. Thoughout the years, through the problems I faced, the rejections and scoldings I endured, I never felt sad again. Maybe I became kinda numb to it. Until now. Its a different kind of sadness now...

Wells, the sadness I felt the first time was that of grief. Now, the sadness i feel is rather different. The reason I'm sad is cause you guys are sad. So cheer up k? Then I'll cheer up too! Smile!

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