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Ivan is my Idol!

Yay... found out that Aik Hong was my Angel. Pretty nice girl, doesn't talk much, but she's still nice. Well, during Sunday's worship, I was looking at Ivan almost throughout, and I could see that he had something bottled within him. When he told us about the porn site thingy, I wasn't surprised. In fact, I really respected him for that.

I remember the lines from the movie Hellboy.
"What makes a man? Is it what he accomplishes? No. What makes a man is the choices he makes. When to start something, and when to finish it..."
I guess Ivan made the choice to tell us about it, and for that, I really feel utter respect for him.

To tell the truth, I've been to a porn site before, but I was so turned off once I entered it. Exposed human bodies are not exactly a nice sight to see in my opinion. That didn't stop me from being bothered by what I had done. But I chose to keep it to myself. Ivan did it so many times, yet could admit it, but I did it only once and had no guts to tell anyone else. I guess for that, Ivan needs to be commended... From now on, he's my idol, not Taufik or Sylvester...


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