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And so I'm 26! It was a great day, with some celebrations done with Van and my colleagues at my work place! Kudos to Van to springing cute surprises my way! Majority of it was positive, but upon reflection, this birthday was rather bittersweet.

Most importantly whilst I was enjoying the day for what it was it made me realize the extent that I had pushed my body, mind and spirit until. As much as I enjoyed today I realized I could have enjoyed it to its fullest if I were fully invested in it. And this made me think about how my body, mind and spirit has been stretched without rest. The awareness of a lack of a time to rest in God came to its full revelation, and this has been the issue for the past few months of life.

I need to make a decision to return back to God's rest and unfortunately this means one thing that I've held back in doing for a long time - leaving the youth ministry. Given how it is going for me I don't see any other options to free up more time for myself to rest my body, mind and spirit to devote it to God. However I have resolved not to do it like many in the past have done and leave with little notification, and I want to show an example of how to release responsibility in a sensible manner. So I'm giving myself a runway until the end of the year to prepare those who will be next in line to face the challenge of serving God in a challenging ministry.

Given the state of many ministries in the church I was initially inclined to stay, but I realized how unhealthy it could be not just for myself but also the ministry to have a leader functioning out of his fatigue and lack of rest in God.

Either ways, happy birthday me! Growing old means making tough choices, but more than ever I have to be firm if I want to serve Christ effectively.

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