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Rekindling

It's been ages since I've posted here, and I must say the me now and the me from all the way back in August of last year has been facing a whole different set of problems that were far from my mind...

And hence I feel the need to revive this blog, so that my thoughts can be collected and my tendency for introspection be rekindled. Life is hard. That's the one reality that I currently am facing right now, and its plain for me to see that the life ahead will be filled with difficulties that I now may not be able to comprehend. Marriage is one of those prospects, and specifically the monetary aspect of all of that...

I've always thought that my faith can stand all of that, but it isn't as easy as it seems with the looming need to consider everything with faith-less eyes, to count the costs and weigh the future. I'm hoping to keep away from that, and its tough. Now I see why many fall away from the faith at my stage of life, or at least their other priorities swallow them whole. I try to see the bigger picture of a life lived with Christ, but that's even more difficult because people around give advice that only make me see more of the darkness... I've received so many suggestions to go for a comfortably paid job that God's still small voice threatens to be overwhelmed. And for that reason I shall keep my heart and eyes open, and listen only to God.

Its not easy, and I know more than ever that I need God in my life. Its funny how things like these that threaten to tear you away from God can turn around and bring yourself closer to Him. I'm amazed at how God works!

So here's cheers to the rekindling of this blog, and with it my fire for God, my candlestick for all to see in a world of darkness (or at least I hope it has that effect despite my sin)! See you guys here soon!

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