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Naive

In times of weakness when you've got someone understanding by your side it makes all the difference. Its something I hold very dear. In the army I've heard of unpleasant experiences regarding dating and such, but it doesn't look like its going to happen to me. And for that I give thanks! Its feels like Vanessa and I can weather any challenge together in God.

Tutorial classes have begun, and so far its not too much. I'm a week ahead with readings, so all's good. Also, the car's proving very useful, and now I don't have to leave the house so early, have my own personal space, and can travel at my own freedom. On that note, topped up my cashcard for the first time and felt a sense of achievement. =)

More to note would be about the tuition that I'm giving. I'm starting to build a good rapport with my students, talking to them about their interests and lifestyle in the time I'm there early or after classes. Just this wednesday I spoke to their parents about their advancement in terms of grammar, which they're progressing very quickly. Vocabulary is a lot more difficult, so they'll need more time. The parents want me to set more homework, which I'm ok with.

And then there's this issue of payment. Money's not the main issue for me so I didn't push for my salary, but my fellow tutors want to. I'm a little uncomfortable about that. And I've also somewhat been told that I don't know the meaning of "hard earned money". Well its just not my priority in all this. In this kind of working world issues, I'd like to keep my ethos, but people just keep telling me how naive it is. I'd rather be naive than back down on what I believe is right, but to each his own.

This experience really shows me how dark this world is, where even the strongest of Christians face many challenges and can get persecuted for their beliefs and ethos. What a sad and painful world we live in. Reminds me of Romans 8, where it states that all of creation is groaning. Right now that's what I feel, a deep despair about the fallen nature of this world. Its no wonder why people bring the world into the church instead of the church into the world.

But I won't be the person who'll do that. If I ever become like that, please hit some sense into me.

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