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Today's leaders retreat made me think about how I could better help in the youth worship min. How to make things better and stuff like that. And I kinda regret not being a better help to Rach. With all those things uni throws at you its not that easy for her. I've gotta step up. Always letting her decide on things, letting her do almost all of the stuff, and leading BS makes me really guilty. I should start helping out.

Thinking about how to expand my service as well. A possible place would be BCG, as a guitarist, in order to bridge the gap between both of us. Leading worship in YM is ok too. Main worship min guitaring is possible as well.

Its not cos I'm in COGS that I wanna do all this... Its because I love Him so so so much. Totemo totemo suki des. My Lord and God. Watashi no Kami-sama.

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We're all growing up so fast, its a pretty scary thing. Knowing that our peaks may have already passed, and that everything is going downhill from there. Its difficult to fathom, and its even more difficult to accept. But its begun. Dying to self becomes harder and harder, and I guess thats what the tone for last night's SYC outing was in general. Honestly I saw in some of their eyes the guilt and sorrow of it all. Ah the pains of growing up.

Oh wells. Gambatte, continue to fight! Tatakau!

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Yup I've shifted the post about camp to later. Monday perhaps.
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