BenLow's blog

It's pretty unusual and atypical for me, but over the past 2-3 weeks I've been living under a cloud of oppression, and I can't help but think its spiritual. Today with just some words of life from Andrew, it was lifted and somehow my vision was clear again. The past 2-3 weeks the burden of the future was very real to me. I was facing the end of my university life, with most of my friends already with a job or interviews, me thinking about the future. Essentially the problems I talked about in my return post on April 2nd... And I thank God for today He broke through my darkness and touched me. This darkness had led me almost to despair in my service toward Him, thinking that perhaps the time was ripe for me to move on. A week plus or so ago God told me whilst I was running that it was time to be urgent, to quickly take active steps to inspire the youth because time was limited. In that cloud of darkness, I interpreted things wrongly... I thought that this message was speci...

Over the past two nights haven't been sleeping well and I'm not quite sure why... It's a rather rare thing because I usually wake up at least feeling rested. But if there's one thing I'm learning over the past few weeks is that the spiritual is nearer than you think! With Vanessa getting to experience God in the supernatural I've been exposed to a whole new world of interesting revelation, and although I'm not as sensitive to it I'm glad my other half is so that I can see the fullness of God's kingdom on this earth. One more thing to give thanks for! So the main purpose of this post is to talk about the various leisure stuff I've picked up as a distraction from work and all that kind of stuff. The first is anime as usual, and one of my favourite genres has always been murder mysteries, with Kindaichi being one of the anime I've watched since young! The new season of that is out, and I'm also watching Detective Conan as well, which has a...

It's been ages since I've posted here, and I must say the me now and the me from all the way back in August of last year has been facing a whole different set of problems that were far from my mind... And hence I feel the need to revive this blog, so that my thoughts can be collected and my tendency for introspection be rekindled. Life is hard. That's the one reality that I currently am facing right now, and its plain for me to see that the life ahead will be filled with difficulties that I now may not be able to comprehend. Marriage is one of those prospects, and specifically the monetary aspect of all of that... I've always thought that my faith can stand all of that, but it isn't as easy as it seems with the looming need to consider everything with faith-less eyes, to count the costs and weigh the future. I'm hoping to keep away from that, and its tough. Now I see why many fall away from the faith at my stage of life, or at least their other priorities sw...