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Post 500... Well to commemorate this, here's a segment on the past 100 posts and how its been throughout the duration... Post 401 - Still in driving course in NS Post 404 - Happy New Year! Post 407 - Passed the military vehicle class 4 test! Post 412 - First time at BB Westwood Post 414 - OUV familiarisation, fell sick... Post 418 - Bro's birthdays, passed BTT, sick again... Post 422 - Passed FTT, Dad's birthday, first combat shoot, first worship leading experience! Post 426 - Knee ligament injury, Playmax! Post 429 - Held in quarantine, then duty in camp for 16 days in a row.... Phew. Erps how come I missed out a post on my birthday? Must've been emoing in camp haha. Post 434 - First driving lesson! Mom's birthday. Post 437 - Did double duties... Spent 18 days a row in camp! Urgh. Post 438 - Final weekend burnt! Post 440 - Trip to Thailand. Post 445 - 1 month to ORD!!! Post 448 - Preparing to become a YE Leader and CGL! Post 452 - ORD YAY! Post 454 - Starting to le...

Post 499! Next one's gonna be big... Woohoo... Finally on the roads driving more than 50km/h. Its been a long time since driving in such a relaxed manner when I was in NS as a military driver. That exhilarating feel is back... Have been thinking of the next half of the year, the plans that God has for my ministry and for Gihon. And for Gihon I've decided to continue focusing on the word, and starting to drive important habits into them like QT and prayer, I know its difficult to maintain these habits, but it has helped me, and I want it to help them as well. For myself, its time to up the level of involvement in my relationship with my cell members in terms of closeness and intimacy, to know them on a very personal level, and also to pray for them even if nothing of much concern is going on for them. Praying God's blessings and guidance into their lives instead of only when urgent prayer needs arise. This is what I'll be working on for the next half of the year! And of ...

I have officially passed driving! Loads of things I have to thank God for. Prayers from others, giving me prior experience through military driving course, a great instructor, great road conditions, a flawless road run, calmness during the entire duration, good weather, a nice and reassuring tester... The list goes on. Really looking forward to driving syc and gihon around. I can't wait!

497th post. Its been a rather pleasant weekend, filled with Gihon and worship stuff. Really enjoyed myself baking with Gihon. Wished we could've taken a vid of everyone for Youth Day... Probably will have to meet them one day to film them haha. Probably will organise a homework doing session for them to complete everything before the hols end. Well Father's Day celebrations today went quite well... Only had a couple of hours to practise for the hoedown, and practise for the worship went comparatively better than the prac during camp. It was my first time playing piano/organ/keys/trumpets/vox for worship, and I'm glad it went ok, and I did it with God. Driving test is on friday... Not too worried about it, and also have no prob with failing it actually. Taking it easy, but hoping for good news. I guess its the peace that transcends all understanding thats taking over. And the most important thing for me for this test is not whether I pass or fail, but whether God was with me...

Well, combined church camp 2010 has ended on a pretty good note. It went a lot better than I thought it would. I'm sure it was good by human standards, and great by God's standards, because He was glorified through this camp, and I believe everyone came back at least either learning something, or being reminded of the basics of Christian living and how it ties to true unity in Christ. The journey through this camp has been far from perfect for me... In fact, its been dismal by my standards, to be truthful. From minor administrative blunders to a realization of how superficial my definition of unity was, and from being upset for not being informed of unfortunate situations that arisen to a distinct awareness of the awkward nature of some of my social interactions... Its been painful for me. Most of all, my lack of prayer and seeking God throughout the whole affair disappointed me the most. On the last afternoon, at the worship prac for father's day... It went horribly for me...

Camp, here I come!

Post 494... Well, I've got a new skin of sorts... And it is really nice and easy to manage. Also, have gotten new songs for the mixpod and edited the sidebars so that it fits nicely. Looking good! The song collection in the mixpod consist of the anime songs I find really good, as well as the Christian songs I've been listening to. Enjoy!

Its been a horrible day, one that trumped even that sense of helplessness I felt when I was sick before SERVE mission trip, and could nearly compare to the weekend in camp feeling so disappointed at the results of my med apps. Well, a simple call spoiled a perfectly normal, good day. It made me think so much about the church camp and how I've been planning for everything. Various negative emotions have made their way into my heart, and I think now's the perfect time to let it all out. Its a long story, but in a nutshell I'm really angry at myself for being angry at others involved in the church camp. I've been a person who prides himself in good self-control, but I've acted out of line... Each of the people I'm angry at have a legitimate reason for acting the way they did, and blaming them isn't justified in anyway. But most of all, as part of the camp comm I should be a champion of the theme: Be One, Be Blessed. And my actions and emotions aren't up to ...

Its been busy busy busy... And apologies for not updating for so long. Its post 492, just 8 short of 500. I'm currently a little upset about how I've gone about preparing some of the church camp things. Mostly because I've let some negative emotions come into play, which aren't really beneficial. Blaming myself a little for losing my self control, even though its a rare occurrence. Well, I'm really thankful for a lot of things that have been going on pretty smoothly... Specifically the just concluded BB/GB Junior camp, ID Retreat and Church Camp preparations. Still have a bit to do, but I guess its ok. I really hope the team building high elements course isn't canceled due to bad weather, cos I still haven't come up with wet weather games haha! And I need one more pair for the performance on fellowship night! Phew just 2 days to the world cup, and 4 days to camp... After that still have to play organ for svc, lead worship in YE, go for my driving test, teach...