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A few sad things happened over the week in camp. Not to me, but I guess it still left an impact. It showed me that although I'm leaving... 8 Signal still plays a big part in my life even now.

List of sad things:

1. Jacky going to DB

Some people say that he deserved it... I think that they're right but can't help but feel a bit sad for him. After all, to an ORDing person nothing is worse than extending your date of departure. And from what I've seen on facebook, the days in there were very bad. And especially cos he's a friend in Christ as well. Made me feel quite unhappy hearing the bad news on thursday.

2. Restructuring

Well, my battalion's gonna merge with other parts of the army, so as of 8th Oct, there will be no more 8 Signal. Made me think of all the things I've achieved till now, and how meaningless those things would become once the battalion changes. Another piece of bad news is that the technology that we use is phasing out. Those nights of tough training, those times we deployed will soon come to naught. Those small but simple memories that we all made and cherished, along with our history, will soon be disappearing.

3. ORD

Many of my friends have started coming to terms with my departure. I've heard the phrase "I'll miss you Ben" dozens of times, although I still have a month and a half left till departure. And unlike most of the NS man community I've grown to love what I do and the people I'm with, and I believe I've left a legacy of sorts behind. That makes it all the more difficult to leave.

To change the topic, one thing I've learnt is not to rub salt in others wounds. I read, much to my chagrin, about the forming of a facebook group for ORDing personnel. Yes, celebration is good, but not at the expense of your friends who've not had the benefit of it. The fact that they're planning to wear shirts that show off the fact that they're ORDing each and every time they're booking out and in, makes me really upset, because of the inconsiderate nature of that very act.

Yes, I know we've suffered for a long time, and its an utter waste of time for people of our education level, but think of those who are still suffering real bad now. Its not nice to rub it in their faces, just as we wouldn't be happy if others rub this sort of thing in our faces. What makes this whole facebook movement even worse is that... Its started by people from my school, people who should at least have a decent sense of propriety and be considerate to others.

Nvm, do what you want. Its things like these that make me cringe when people call me an ex student of RJC. And don't ask me to join the group, I'm not interested. Thanks.

Comments

Anonymous said…
Hi Ben,

Feeling very nostalgic in reading your entry. Just to share my thoughts.

1. Jacky going to DB. I wonldn't say that he deserves it. We had tried to counsel him and he is aware of the consequences. The choice was his and I hope the experience has made him wiser and more mature.

2. Restructuring. Technology has changed the world so much in the past decade. I too am very saddened that the things that we have been training with, spending time with, having an emotional attachment to will so make way for newer and sexier equipment. Though they may physically vanish into thin air one day, the memories will live on forever for all of us.

3. ORD. My ORD is still many years away. :)

Justus

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