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Lousy

This week has been so lousy for me... One of the worst weeks in my life. I did lotsa things I never should have done, and I found out that someone got hurt real real bad just because of me. And I'm losing my appetite. Which is not good, considering I have gastric, and I'm already so thin. Don't worry guys, I'll try to eat more.

Haha it all started on Wednesday, after Guitar Ensemble farewell. It was a pretty nice farewell I must say, and the atmosphere was good. But couldn't help feeling real sad that they were all leaving. And they might never have anything to do with guitar again. I miss em... Yeah then heard we lost rugby 10-15. And in a real agonizing fashion as well. Wednesday was low. Real low.

Thursday started off rather ok, till bio lecture. That was when some people from my class decided to go for Netball 3rd 4th placing between RJC and TJC. Without telling some people in class. It made me really pissed, and I wanted to boycott it initially. Stormed away from bio lecture in a hurry. But decided to go after all. Looking back I acted like an ass. Though I had my reasons to do so, I should've never expressed my emotions so explicitly. Sorry guys...

We went to the match, and they lost by 10 points. Argh more demoralization... And then at home I read Shirley's message. It kinda made me miss her lots. And I hope she's doing as well as I think she is. Thursday ended like lower than low.

Friday was really the worst. Of course as always it started off ok. Council investiture kinda made me miss my OGL... And then it got worse. Had to stay back for make-up lessons cos we kinda skipped classes to attend netball the previous day. Then when I went home, I was still feeling kinda good and the events of the past week had kinda seemed to already be washed away...

Until I found out that certain comments made on my blog caused something unimaginable to happen. It lead to someone being hurt real bad. Not directly, but indirectly... But it still is bad enough to make me think about what I'd done. I never expected that sort of consequences. After I posted those remarks I expected the person involved to go reflect and see what was wrong with herself. But no... She went to complain, and someone got implicated as a result of that. I'm sorry...

The events of the past 3 days kinda made me real sad. Made me think whether I should ever have started opening up, whether I should've even started this blog. Its quite sad to have so many questions whether the path I took was right. But I believe its the path God told me to take, so I'm not looking back any more.

I guess if the things had happened far apart from each other I wouldn't be so down. But it happened one after another, and its kinda like a snowball effect you know? And even worse... The thing I never ever wanna do is hurt someone, even if its indirect, but that happened so many times this week. I'm really disappointed in myself.

That kinda marks a lousy week for me. Hope the weekend will be much better, and I can forget about what happened and put everything behind me. I guess I need prayer. Thanks guys.

Oh and Azrin's becoming a :Delirious? fan! I'm glad I lent him Deeper. =)
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