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Somehow I wish it didn't have to end. The days of RI are gone. And the realisation sets in. Theres no way you're going back. Only forward, into the world of dangers. It seems like theres an empty void where RI life once was. And I wanna go back. Well... Too late. Its like playing FF and you go to disc 2. Suddenly you wish that you've completed a quest advancing. Its like playing a piano piece in a concert. And suddenly you wish that you could've played better. Its like losing a soccer match. Suddenly you find your side trailing, and wish that you could've have done something to improve the result. I can name more but you guys get my point.

Went back to get my PDR, APR and CCA records. Didn't want to go... But went anyways.... My results look good, my development looks good, my CCA contributions look good. Hmm... But I wish I could've gotten something more than just all these in the 4 years I spent.

Went to prac a bit for the trip. Went to guitar room. Saw my Alto on the racks and felt that urge to bring it home with me, to claim it as my own. But well. You enter with nothing, and leave with nothing. The only thing that's changed is your heart, mind and body. Practised Copa, Wave, Granada, and Cadiz for the trip.

Went to collect the pullovers for the trip. Realised that this trip will be my last ever connection with RIGE, and it was my last opportunity to do something for the school. So well. We went to get the stuff, had fun, ate at Swensens and talked a lot. Seems like everyone's feeling bored, everyone's wishing they could turn back time.

Nearly went to get the flu jab, but it seems like all the clinics have run out of the vaccine. Well. And the next batch is coming only in two weeks time. Sometimes you wish that you did something earlier instead of leaving it to the last minute. Like patting your friends on the back and talking with them. Now you'll never be as close as you were to them again.

Well.......... I guess this is the end that leads to a new beginning. Its time for us to lift our chins and look to the future. Cos its only the future that matters. Onwards to RJC! Yeah!

I realise that we cannot change the past, but what is more important is how we change the future.-Ellone, FF8

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