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With all the clutter that’s going on in my head I’ve resolved to return to a simpler lifestyle. No social media (Facebook and Instagram) for me upon switching to the iPhone X today.  Just going back to the old routine of watching anime and YouTube subscriptions in the evenings after work, and making use of Netflix once in awhile. In the evenings during the weekends have started to take long walks. Doing my qt rounds up the rest of the time I’m spending. Am trying to see whether I can squeeze in some gaming. Have found myself staring into space often. Not too sure how long that will last. Another thing I’m thinking of doing is documenting my journey over the past 1+ year. I have a vague idea of how to do it - maybe something like the first season of 13 reasons why. I am thinking it will help me with the recovery. Oh and no worries, I’m not suicidal like the main character in that show. Time to take a walk so until the next post. 

 It’s been nearly 4 years since the last time I posted, but it’s time for me to find myself again amidst the chaos of life. I’ve been through so many good highs but I am at a massively big low at the moment, and some times it feels like there is no more hope.  I have found solace in the beautiful soundtrack of ff13. The haunting melody of “The Promise” and it’s lyrics resonate with me. Make  my wish come true, let darkness fade to light Show me there's still hope, show me it's not over Battles we can win, our struggle lies  within Will we live to greet the dawn? Love will not leave you, hate will not heal you Promise me one day that peace shall reign I honestly don’t know how things ended up this way. What a tragedy. All I can do now is numb my emotions so that I can function normally. Eventually, I really do hope I find peace. This is a step forward, and despite making it with trepidation I know that God is with me, the only one I can trust.  That’s all for now...

Hi all, another anime is done and here I am! It's been ages since I last bowled but it was a great time reliving that when my company went out for Healthy Lifestyle. I'm proud to have done well, bowling 107 then 154! Enjoyed it thoroughly and glad I went. Besides that currently Van and I are going through the marriage preparation course, which has been immensely helpful and has helped us see that we are on the right track although for sure we do have more to work on in our relationship. Together with 4 other couples I think it's been great sharing about our situations, difficulties and past stories to encourage each other. Other than that I've just passed my 2 year mark working at my office and I'll be glad to stay here for as long as I can! Recently we've had a new addition to the office and this has lightened workload. Though there are still many things to settle (reviewing people's assistance), I think the work environment has more or less stabilize...

Hiya everyone! Just signed my permanent staff contract today and I must say that was a real moment of satisfaction. Shows that the 2 years of hard work and dedication to what I do has paid off in a big way and I'm happy with my work. When I started my job I had no idea it would be this fulfilling and enjoyable and I am so blessed to have it. Couple of exciting things are happening: for one a holiday with my family to Korea. Other stuff include pay raises and the bonus that goes with it, Euro 2016 etc. I finally watched a match on Saturday (it was boring) but Sunday night's matches were great. Tonight not too sure if I'll watch any but it's shaping up to be an exciting tournament. Well that's all for now, more updates after the next series!

The previous anime's done and here's a new post! Work is easing up a bit due to help from a new colleague who's come to help us from another branch. He's lightened our workload considerably and that's great! That, coupled with me happening to see not many people is making June a rather more relaxing month. Not looking forward to August though cos that's when workloads will be at their highest! The newest anime I'm watching is Element Hunters, it's about a world where chemical elements start disappearing around the world and only kids who can see them can help solve the problem by defeating monsters in an alternate earth to return the elements back to its original state. An interesting premise, but the anime's style seems more catered to kids. Still ok for me though! Gonna be buying a couple of board games soon hoping to get one for solo play, one for large group games, one that I want and probably a game which is really easy to play. Can't ...

Hi guys its been 2 months since the last post and that was how long I have been watching Major! With 6 seasons and some OVAs it took some time! The Month of April was pretty good but May was when it started getting tough. Have a couple of tough clients to handle, as well as heightening work loads (8 days of duty in June). My office is in a mini crisis, with only one counter staff and 2 failing to turn up, and thus now we have to do counter duties as well which is a huge time sink and it is getting tougher to finish off cases. We'll have to see what we can do though. As a result the past 2 weeks have been exceptionally tiring at work and weekends have become very precious! Glad that this week I finally got a chance to relax well! For the first in a very long time it's a full weekend to myself (in addition to dating Vanessa of course). Vanessa has finally gotten her braces in and she is now able to eat solid food, so we went for Monster Curry, something that she has always lo...

Major is finally finished, so here's a post! Anime List as of 1st June 2016 .hack//Sign + Liminality + Legend of the Twilight + Roots + Quantum 07 Ghost Ah My Goddess + Fighting Wings + Flights Of Fancy Air Gear Air Master Akazukin Cha Cha Akira Amatsuki Angel Sanctuary Angelic Layer Asu No Yoichi Asura Cryin' Avatar + Legend of Korra Ayakashi Ayashi No Ceres Azumanga Daioh Baccano Baki The Grappler Bakumatsu Kikansetsu Irohanihoheto Basilisk Basquash Beck Beet The Vandel Buster + Excellion Berserk Black Blood Brothers Black Cat Black Lagoon + The Second Barrage + Roberta's Blood Trail Blade of the Immortal Bleach Blood+ Blue Dragon Bokurano Bokusatsu Tenshi Boys Be Buso Renkin Canaan Cardcaptor Sakura Chobits Chocolate Underground Chrome Shelled Regios Chrono Crusade Clannad + After Story Claymore Code Geass: Lelouch of the Rebellion + R2 Cooking Master Boy Cowboy Bebop Cro...