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Deja Vu

2012-01-25T00:49:00.002+08:00

And so CNY passed by in a rather quick flash, and I'm thankful that this year it wasn't as tiring, invasive and threatening as previous years. Usually I don't look forward to some aspects of CNY, as I'll be bombarded by questions, but this year was relatively peaceful, enjoyable even!

Also, really felt that the previous CNY was just a day ago. Remembered clearly that I was the designated driver the most of the days where we went visiting, and driving during that time was especially fun. Now that I have my own car, haven't been driving my dad's, and this year for CNY I didn't either.

With school/work looming tomorrow for many of my cousins, everybody was rather vexed about it having to end. But I guess I'm alright. After all, only have a lesson from 6-8pm tomorrow! Quite happy about that.

Well until next time! :)

Thessalonians!

2012-01-17T23:23:00.002+08:00

I've begun my exploration of the book of 1 Thessalonians, and I really do feel its is apt at my current stage of life, as someone still going strong in the faith despite facing trials, just like the Thessalonians did. Looking very much forward to increasing my knowledge of the word and be ministered by this book at the same time!

Also some amazing things... Coinciding with my starting to lead worship for YE again, my piano has been shifted into my room, and that I really praise God for. Here we see is efficacy at work, doing things correctly, at the right time, in the right situations. There I see the power and the wisdom of God at work. And preparing for worship has rejuvenated me and drawn me closer to God once again, and that feeling is amazing.

Today is also my dad and mom's wedding anniversary, and with that its 25 years of marriage! Great great!

Lastly, tutorials will begin soon, but my final timetable hasn't been confirmed, so shall only post about it after!

Excited excited, after seeing God work in my life. I believe this year amazing things will happen for His glory!

Soul Eater

2012-01-14T00:11:00.003+08:00

First off, I must say that I'm very very excited about this year. After starting it off simply, the excitement has begun to build in me for a couple of reasons. First is the development of YE, and I really do see many avenues for the youth to rise up and not only bond but become stronger in Christ. The next thing is about the happenings in SERVE... It just so happened that both Aaron and Amos have become group leaders of their individual groups! Really anticipating their growth as leaders, not only administratively but in their heart for the people.

More more... Is about Gihon and its development! Esther's coming back to help me with the admin, and that really does free me for a lot of things, especially to focus on the spiritual and pastoral elements. I'm also excited about the CE that Sam's prepared, and I do hope to bring my members through the year, bonding more and learning more about God.

And some more: my modules this semester do seem very interesting to me. Am finally continuing my learning of japanese and thus moving towards my goal of mastering Japanese. And also, learning more about the history of the Japanese. Also my other modules are going to be very very useful for my involvement in YE. Can't wait.

Last thing... I've just started watching a new series... Soul Eater! Still not too deep in the plot yet so update you guys more about it! Here are the two main characters Maka and Soul! Hmm Soul is actually the scythe you see in this pic, and can change into human form. :)

2012 is gonna be exciting, I just feel it! Hopefully all you guys out there are enjoying it. =D

Ubin

2012-01-08T13:38:00.003+08:00

The new semester is about to begin! Into my second half of year 2, I feel that I'm very much enjoying being a student at NUS, but also very aware of how soon the end of my left as a student is coming...

Before that, here are the modules I'll be taking and their schedules

PL3244 - Adolescent Psychology (Tuesdays 2-4pm)
SS2205 - Japan and Singapore (Wednesdays 4-6pm)
PL3241 - Personality and Individual Differences (Wednesdays 6-8pm)
PL3239 - Industrial and Organizational Psychology (Thursdays 10-12noon)
LAJ2202 - Japanese 3 (Thursdays 6-8pm)

Which means that for the first 2 weeks, I've have a 6 hour break on thursday... Can spend that time watching anime and reading my texts I guess... Hmm what to do what to do. Wednesday looks like it'll be quite rushed, but I can leave early from my Japan and Singapore module to go for my other lecture, so I'm not too worried.

Besides that, finally got a chance to properly visit the main jetty of Pulau Ubin! And its pretty easy to navigate there so we had no problems getting around. I don't mind just spending a day going to Chek Jawa just to relax, look at the swamps and enjoy the gentle sea breeze... The previous 2 times I was there was for YE camp and for OBS. And at the end of our cycling whilst we were going back, saw a beautiful rainbow, which was once again a reminder of God always being present with me.

Well got to send a couple of messages today to Gihon about SERVE inauguration, and to Andrew and Esther to schedule a lunch/dinner with them to talk about their future. Can't wait! Hmm maybe I'll use lunch time on thursday to meet Esther? Hmm...

Bliss

2012-01-02T19:20:00.003+08:00

Well, a big welcome to the year 2012, a brand new year waiting to be explored. The year 2011 went by in a flash... It felt like a bullet train going past, with the busyness in YE, dating and school stuff making it go rather quick!

If there's one word to describe 2011, it would be 'bliss'. Being with Vanessa and getting to know her contributed to much of that, and am looking forward to spending many more years with her. There are many things that happened this year, but all pale in comparison to finally being a couple with her. Its a big responsibility, and I now believe that I'm in a good capacity to care for someone else, not only emotionally and physically, but spiritually as well.

Its been rather uneventful for a typical year for me, but oh wells I enjoyed it while I could. In this new year, I'm going to continue striving towards maintaining my spiritual fervor, which I realize is beginning to diminish with age. The relationship with God is there, but is starting to grow numb. I used to be able to hear God's voice each and everyday, but its becoming more sporadic as the days pass. Revival is needed, and I'm still praying for it.

Besides that, its time for me to pass on what I've learnt to the younger generations, grooming them to love and serve God with all their heart, mind, strength and soul, just as I did and I'm now doing. That'll be my motivation for the new year. As for my personal goals, shall continue working on my list at the sidebar of my blog.

So on to other random stuff I've been doing. GTA4 completion is at 87% completion, I'm still stuck at the first page of Chopin's Revolutionary Etude, I'm currently watching Yugioh Zexal and ep 35 of Running Man. As for my story, now working on chapter 13 of it. Bidding is occurring now, but I've been allocated 3 modules already so it isn't much pressure. So far what I'm hoping to take are:

Japanese 3
Adolescent Psychology - good for helping YE I hope!
Industrial and Organizational Psychology
Personality and Individual Differences

Oh oh and my results for the previous semester: an A- for stats, B+ for social, developmental psych and food & health, and a B- for abnormal psych. This brings my overall CAP to 4.17, decent and respectable!

On this note, a happy 2012 to everybody, and stay tuned here for more posts. Its my 7th year or so of blogging, and this'll go on for sure. =D

Anime List as of 31/12/11

2011-12-31T13:34:00.000+08:00

Ah My Goddess + Fighting Wings + Flights Of Fancy

Akazukin Cha Cha

Akira

Angel Sanctuary

Angelic Layer

Avatar

Ayakashi

Ayashi No Ceres

Azumanga Daioh

Basilisk

Beck

Black Lagoon + The Second Barrage + Roberta's Blood Trail (still ongoing)

Bleach (still ongoing)

Blood+

Bokusatsu Tenshi

Boys Be

Chobits

Chrono Crusade

Clannad + After Story

Claymore

Cooking Master Boy

Cowboy Bebop

Curious Play

D Gray Man

Devil May Cry

Digimon Adventure 1 + 2 + Tamers

Dragon Ball + Z + GT + Kai

E's Otherwise

Earth Girl Arjuna

Elfen Lied

Excel Saga

Fairy Tail (Still ongoing)

Fate Stay Night

Final Fantasy Unlimited

Flame of Recca

Fruits Basket

Full Metal Alchemist + Brotherhood

Full Metal Panic + Fumoffu + Second Raid

Full Moon Wo Sagashite

Gantz

Gatekeepers + 21

Getbackers

Ghost Hound

Gintama

Girls Bravo

Ghost in the Shell + Stand Alone Complex + Innocence + 2nd Gig + Solid State Society

Grander Musashi

Gravitation

Great Teacher Onizuka

Grenadier

Gungrave

Gunslinger Girl + Il Teatrino

Happy Lesson + Advance + The Final

Hellsing

History's Strongest Disciple Kenichi

I My Me Strawberry Eggs

Ikkitousen + Dragon Destiny + Great Guardians + Xtreme Xecutor

Initial D + 2nd Stage + 3rd Stage + 4th Stage + Extra Stage + Battle Stage

Inukami!

K-On + Second Season

Kaleido Star

Karas

Kimi Ni Todoke + Season 2

The Legend of Condor Heroes

Lucky Star

Maburaho

Magikano

Mahou Sensei Negima + Negima!?

My Hime

Mai Otome + Zwei

MAR

Muteki Kanban Musume

NANA

Naruto + Shippuuden (still ongoing)

Neon Genesis Evangelion + Death + Rebirth + You Are (Not) Alone

Ninku

Noein

Now and Then, Here and There

One Piece (still ongoing)

Ouran High School Host Club

Persona 4 The Anime (still ongoing)

Powerstone

Prince Of Tennis

Princess Tutu

Prism Ark

Rave

Rental Magica

Revolutionary Girl Utena

Ronin Warriors

Rosario Vampire + Kappuchu

Rurouni Kenshin

Sailormoon + R + S + SuperS + Stars

Saiyuki + Reload + Gunlock + Requiem + Interactive + Burial

Sakura Wars

Samurai 7

Samurai Champloo

Scrapped Princess

Scryed

Shaman King

Shopping Arcade Abenobashi

Shounen Onmyouji

Shuffle! + Memories

Slayers + Next + Try + Revolution + Evolution-R

Souten No Ken

Steam Detectives

Steel Angel Kurumi + Zero

Tenjou Tenge + OVA

To Love Ru + Motto + OVA

Tokyo Majin Gakuen Kenpucho Tou + Second Act

Tokyo Mew Mew

Tsubasa Chronicle

Trinity Blood

Vampire Knight + Guilty

Vandread

Witch Hunter Robin

You're Under Arrest

Yu Yu Hakusho

Yugioh + GX + 5D + Zexal

Yumeria

Total: 119 and counting.

His Kingdom Will Know No End

2011-12-25T20:48:00.004+08:00

And so the busyness of this holiday period has ended, with 3 tiring events now out of the way!

First was YE Camp from the 19th to the 22nd of December. During that time, we played many games, learnt valuable lessons, grew spiritually and grew closer. It was a really wonderful time, my first time as an overseer of a camp. And its very very different as someone mentoring and taking care of the ones who lead. You see everything as opportunities to strengthen those under your charge, wanting to do your best to instill in them values that they, in future can teach the younger ones. The feel for this camp was definitely different, and I enjoyed myself thoroughly nonetheless, learning to let go and let God work within the leaders.

Did lots of driving for the camp, shifting logistics, buying groceries and transporting people here and there. The car couldn't have come at a better time, as this year it was really quite needed! Also, got to interact more with the younger people, giving them strength and bringing them together with the old. This camp was really special! I didn't learn so much from the sessions, but instead from the entire process of being a good example to the rest, an encouraging the younger ones to step up and contribute their best for God! Really thankful to see the younger ones rise up!

The camp theme: Must. Find. What I've found is truly in a way the Kingdom of God, and my present role in it. My desire is now to develop the people in YE to become strong in supporting, loving, and caring for each other, and that's my way of searching for God's kingdom. During this camp, I've seen what I can contribute to that, and I'm going to keep contributing to it.

Second thing: CCIS! I was part of the munchkin skit, and reprised my role as the angel. Decided to add in more elements to bring across the concept of hope that everyone celebrating Christmas should embody, the hope we have in Jesus Christ. And I hope I managed to pull that off! Van performed too, a guzheng performance with her friends, and after, I managed to interact lots with her friends, and I'm glad to have met them. Seeing the little girls perform brought me back to the time I too had to perform. And it looks like they're way better than me. =P

Lastly... Christmas day, which just passed! Played for service, and enjoyed it very very much. Playing with Nat has always been one of the things I love the most. And the way the band coordinated everything was really special to me. Within the worship and preparation, I felt God tell me that to usher in His kingdom, the right focus on Jesus was needed, of the fact that He sacrificed so much, coming to earth for us. And I played with that feeling in my heart. Afterwards was the customary giving of gifts, and I thank everyone for the yummy snacks that they've given.

Its been a couple of years since I actually got properly in the Christmas mood, and this year I did. And its the first year I've bought presents with my own money, and from that I truly felt the spirit of gift giving: a giving from the heart genuinely wanting to bless others like Jesus had blessed me. Well, you learn something new every day!

Coming soon: end of year anime post!

Must. Find.

2011-12-18T22:33:00.001+08:00

Off to YE camp from tomorrow to thursday! Can't wait! =D

Galatians

2011-12-12T15:35:00.003+08:00

Now that Van's in Cambodia can't help but miss her. Well, it'll only be till Saturday! Sent her to the airport this morning, and I was glad to in a way be part of the beginning of the mission trip for all of them. It's not the first time Van and I have been apart (there was a time I went to Malaysia), but it still needs getting used to.

Well specially went to Bishan Junction 8 on one of our dates, and it brought back loads of memories of my time in secondary school and JC... And I must say I miss it very very much. The times when we'd go ramen hunting, meeting with my band members and eating at S11, and the times at LJS with my guitar buddies. Those moments I hold close, and I'm glad we went there. We watched Puss in Boots, which was pretty entertaining and a definite must watch for fans of animated films. =)

Recently I've been feeling the strain from all the events that I'm being a part of: Christmas Service, YE Camp, BS leading and CCIS. Its always this time of the year when things get difficult and you lose yourself in all the doing. I find myself needing God's renewal and wanting to hear His voice, but sometimes just being unable to do so. Loads of prayer is in order, and through this busy time we'll all make it through by God's grace.

For my QT I've started on the book of Galatians, and its theme is that of God's grace, and the relevance of that to the gospel versus all the false teachings that advocate works. =) Just FYI for your bible knowledge! Oh oh and some trivia: Galatia's located on the north area of present day Turkey. =)

Running Man

2011-12-02T23:26:00.003+08:00

The hols are getting pretty busy...

And for this week, had to settle worship at BB for Sunday morning, cell group stuff, as well as sponsors for the church camp. A whole load of important things, but I'm more than glad to do it.

Besides that, settling into the groove of hols really well, establishing a daily routine that contains piano playing (Still working on the first page of the Revolutionary Etude), PS3 playing (Played till chapter 3 of AC Revelations, and 60% completion for GTA4), anime watching, story writing (yes its begun once again) and exercise for ippt. Besides that with all the breaks, spent some of them just chatting or hanging out with Van. =)

Besides that, have also begun to watch Running Man! A popular Korean variety game show. Pretty intense and hilarious as well, a good mix of entertainment in one. The format for the game changes along the way, so you've gotta watch it yourself to enjoy it.

Besides that have done my module preference exercise, and here are the modules that I've selected:

1. Personality Psychology and Individual Differences
2. Adolescent Psychology
3. Industrial and Organizational Psychology
4. Japanese 3

Haven't decided the rest yet. Well I'll keep you guys posted on that. =)

Revelations

2011-11-28T19:35:00.006+08:00

Well, exams are over! With 1 on monday, 2 on wednesday, 1 on friday and 1 on saturday. I must say that this semester's papers were definitely easier than last semesters imo, and I'm very thankful to God for that. For some reason I've got all the more lenient lecturers for this semester. Not too sure how my results will go, but we'll see about that. =)

Went for my first date post exams with Van, and it was watching Happy Feet 1 (we're watching Happy Feet 2 tomorrow), and doing up a jigsaw puzzle together, spending lots of quality time which we both enjoy. I'm really happy that we're both free now, but soon the busy Christmas period will settle in... Involved in YE camp, playing for Christmas service, and CCIS too...

Shall temper that with a good amount of relaxation... With a new anime: Full Moon Wo Sagashite. Here's a pic of the main character: Mitsuki!

Its about a 12 year old girl - Mitsuki who has a dream of becoming a singer, but she is suddenly visited by 2 shinigami (Death Gods) who tell her she has only 1 year to live. They grant her the ability to transform into a 16 year old girl and thus she is able to audition to be a pop idol, which she does and succeeds. Quite a touching anime of how purity and innocence even in a cut-throat world is important.

Besides that, tried out Assassin's Creed Revelations, and its been treating me well! =D =D

Exams Again

2011-11-21T13:22:00.000+08:00

Well my first exam for this sem is coming up from 5-7pm! Statistics in Psychology 2... Do pray for the rest of my exams yeah!

More updates tomorrow. =)

Revolutionary

2011-11-15T10:41:00.003+08:00

And so school has ended for this semester, and I'm pretty glad I've made it through in one piece. If there's one thing I've learnt this semester, is that seeking God and staying focused is never easy, but if you manage to do it, you'll feel all the closer to His presence. This semester has been tough, but even more so than the previous semesters, I've drawn closer to God and relied on Him. Exams are drawing near, and 2 out of 5 subjects have been studied already. Working hard on the rest. =)

As always, sorry for the lack of posts, have been studying and my schedule's been packed since the end of the term till today, and today marks the beginning of a whole stretch of free-ness that'll last till next year! So expect posts more often!

Have started on Chopin's Revolutionary Etude, the first of the difficult trio of songs that I'd like to try. This trio includes the above song, and his Heroic Polonaise and Fantasie Impomptu. All of them are amazingly hard, but since this Etude is the shortest, I'll start with this. The left hand for the song is very very fast. At least I'll finally get to train my left hand hmm.

Besides that, have also started watching Claymore! About girls needing to infuse themselve with power of beings called Yoma to defeat the Yoma themselves and save the towns from them. The story follows a girl named Claire as she enters into the organization of the Claymores. Its one of the more famous manga, ranking slightly below the big 3, fairy tail and tied with D Gray Man and Hunter X Hunter. Here's a pic:

That's Claire in the pic I believe. The anime is so named because each one of them has a Claymore, a Gaelic sword that they use to fight the Yoma.

Lastly, Os are over! Its time to date Vanessa! \(^O^)/ Its been 3 months since we've started dating officially so praise God for that!

What Can I Do

2011-11-04T10:07:00.003+08:00

And so more updates. All my projects, readings and assignments have been finished save for a final statistics report, which is due next thurstday. And its been a rather amazing journey through this semester, and definitely something to give thanks for. In this semester, though workload was high, I must say I was true to my pledge to stay focused on God even more so than the previous semester, and God indeed has blessed by granting successes all over. In my previous semesters there'll always be a couple of disappointing results for assignments and such during the course of schooling, but nothing of that sort this semester. This is the first semester I've completed with Vanessa by my side, and with her support I've been more focused as well. Definitely something to thank God for.

Its time to pick up a new anime... And I'm leaning towards Gantz, which I'm sure most people have heard of due to its appearance in our box offices earlier in the year. Claymore, another rather famous anime that has a large following is another option. I'll go for both I guess. Shall provide more info as I begin watching them.

The song "What Can I Do" has been ringing through my head the last couple of days, and its really kind of the theme song for this portion of my life. Seeing all the blessings from all over, the power of nature around me, and what Jesus has done for me, what can I do but praise Him? And everyday I'll make everything I do a hallelujah. =)

Sporadic

2011-10-31T10:24:00.003+08:00

Sorry if posts have been rather sporadic the past few times. This semester's work load is considerably higher than previous, as I'm taking 4 core modules. Thankfully, now the only things that are left are my food and health assignment and my statistics report. Whittled down from almost approximately 12 projects and presentations I've had to make or do this semester.

An update on the social psych project that I've just recently finished: we did immensely well, being awarded more bonus marks than the other groups (according to the lecturer at least), and for that I thank God. One of the segments of the presentation involved impromptu recall of previous concepts learnt (the lecturer kinda dropped a bomb on all of us suddenly), but then our group handled it very professionally and it ended off very well! Thanks be to God, he's the one who's always been in control! It was the talent for thinking quick on my feet that He gave me that helped us through that one.

Today marks the end of tutorial classes, with my last one coming in at 2-4pm today. There are still 10 lectures and 2 lab sessions to go for, but no worries, 2 weeks to the end of the semester! Have decided to begin studying on the 6th of November, which is when I've predicted to have finished my report by, and it'll be studying all the way to the 21st of November, when my first paper starts. God's taken me through so much this semester, and I believe He'll keep doing so!

Chopin's Nocturne is now finished, and GTA 4 I've reached the 2nd chapter finally. Next song will be either Chopin's Fantasie Impromptu or Revolutionary Etude. Both extremely difficult, and its kind of the first time I'm attempting to enter into beyond grade 8 level music. =S Won't try it till my studying has reached a good enough rhythm.

Beyond that, the intense week for Os have started, and it didn't start too well for Vanessa, with quite a bad stomachache early in the morning at 430am today. Prayed for her whilst her mom "treated" her all the way till 530... But no worries now she's alright.

Signing off! Not sure when my next post will come but I hope it'll be soon instead of so spread apart hmm...

Persona Again

2011-10-21T12:20:00.003+08:00

I've found a new anime to watch! And its one of those that I've been looking forward to. =) My PS2 game Persona 4 is being turned into an anime, so I've started watching it, and though I know the storyline already, its nice seeing it animated, and the battle scenes showcased.

Its the midst of O levels already, and the first major paper has gone by. I must say I think Vanessa handled the first one well from what I heard from her. Though she was a little afraid that she'd made a mistake on the entrophy being positive or negative, she answered it correctly so I assured her of that. Also, she's begun looking toward the future, to what she'd like to do and study, reading up on all the application details and things like that. I like the sense of responsibility that I'm observing in her. =)

Besides that, term is drawing to a close, with only 4 weeks of studying left. I've got 3 more projects due: A social psych one - writing a children's storybook with concepts taken from social psych. A food and health one - about food safety, and a statistics one - final report on the research we've been doing. Besides that also have 2 more presentations, social psych and statistics, with us presenting on our reports. So its gonna be a busy final few weeks of term!

For Chopin's Nocturne, I'm 2 and a half pages in, with only half a page (6 bars) left to complete.

Another show I've been watching, related to abnormal/health psychology: Superskinny vs Supersized. About an obese and a very skinny person forced to exchange diets to educate both them about the flaws of their over/undereating. Pretty interesting from a psychologists point of view, but nonetheless a good learning point for all those who have questions about the diet.

Vampire Knight

2011-10-10T15:48:00.003+08:00

Recently I've been finding driving people around to be quite a joy, especially people from church. Providing for their needs makes me feel that I'm utilizing my gifts and talents in a positive way, for the sake of others. However this week, after a long time of driving only, I took the train to church on Sunday and to Bugis on Friday to celebrate Mel's birthday. I must say I still don't really like public transport, which is rather stifling and discomforting.

Have begun on my next anime, Vampire Knight. A suggestion from Vanessa that I've kept in mind for watching for quite some time. Obviously, its about vampires and a special school for them, with normal students attending the day class, and vampires attending the night class. Haven't gone too deeply into it, so looking forward to more action!

Here's a pic.

The main character Yuuki in the foreground, and leader of the vampires Kaname to the left and her close friend Zero to the right.

This week I've got a presentation and then a teaching in YE to deal with, so there's a little pressure on me right now, which I'm sort of feeling uncomfortable about. Need prayer, encouragement and trust in God. Have finished preparing for the presentation, but now need to concentrate on the teaching in YE.

Academic Exploits

2011-10-05T19:47:00.003+08:00

And so one of the toughest weeks so far I've had in school has passed, with 3 tests, a presentation, and a preparation for an experiment all completed. Its time for some good old R&R, and a whole lot of rest. Spent a couple of late nights working everything out, but I guess its paid off in a way. Apologies for not keeping up the posting every Monday.

So a couple of highlights over the past week: the 3 tests were rather smooth sailing and weren't as difficult as I thought it was. In fact I've already gotten the results for my abnormal psychology test back, and I've scored a 41/50, which I'm pretty satisfied with.

Besides that, I've been working hard on a presentation that was exceptionally difficult, as the combined presentation with all 4 of us has to last 95 minutes, including discussion time for the class. I was rather stressed by that and spent quite some time reading the article I was presenting on and working on the slides. It went magnificently well in the end, being rather entertaining and informative!

Lastly, in a separate group project, my friends and I went to the Science Library and then Kent Ridge Park to film some footage that we needed for the conducting of an experiment on Tuesday. Of course, since I was the only one with a car I was tasked to drive. On top of that, I was the one featured in the video as well. But as with all my academic exploits, this one went well too, and when we showed the tutor our footage he was extremely pleased with it.

Because of all this, this week especially I felt exceptionally vulnerable and stressed, and I must say that God has been faithful, keeping with me even though in periods like these I may have lost sight. With Vanessa having some problems of her own, and me helping her shoulder them as well, the additional pressure did stretch me quite a bit. But one thing I do know, it is shaping me in a way to be more resilient and able to guide and protect her in the days to come, and its strengthening our relationship. Its a rather new experience sharing the pain of someone you love, yet having to suppress that pain to be strong for her. Its unlike anything I've ever tried, much more difficult than any challenge so far. But I'll cope with it! =D

With that said, it feels like we've been together for an extremely long time, even though its only been 2 months. That shows the strength of our relationship right now, and I'm very pleased. =) O levels are looming, and I'm praying for God to keep sustaining her and revealing His blessings to her each and everyday.

Nocturne

2011-09-26T13:16:00.002+08:00

And so, yet another post on a monday. Other days seem to be extremely busy haha. My studying for mid terms has just finished with abnormal psychology done yesterday, so all that's left is some form of recap and going for the exam. With the first paper at 6pm on tuesday, and the other 2 at 10am and 12noon on wednesday. Still keeping the faith in God's providence for those, whilst in the midst of studying.

As you can see from the title I've started on Chopin's Nocturne Op.9, No.2, the most famous of his nocturnes, and one you can hear very commonly in korean dramas or the such. I must say this is the piano piece I was rather looking forward to complete, even more so than Tristesse.

Besides that I've started on GTA4 as well as continuing an old project of mine: a completionist game of Dynasty Warriors 6, trying to get all characters to level 50. For GTA4 I'm doing it as nicely as I possibly can, obeying traffic rules and having a good, simple job driving my cousin's taxi for him. For story missions its a necessity to be violent, but I try my best not to be excessive. For Dynasty Warriors its part of my OCD to train characters in alphabetical order, and now I'm at Sun Quan, having finished Sun Jian.

One of my next submissions about the evaluation and developmental concepts of a toy of our choice is due on thursday, and project mates have been good. We've finished the bulk of it, with only citations and bibliography left to do. We'll complete it by today for sure.

Vanessa and I have only been able to meet 1 or 2 times per week at church, and I must say I miss her terribly despite us messaging each other. Its something that I've never felt before, and I'm still getting used to that emotion. One thing that really encourages me is that we're still incredibly close, and that I thank God immensely for. Sharing about our QT each night is a time that I look forward to every day, but I still can't wait to meet her more often during the hols. Less than 2 months till it ends... Its good that we're both really patient haha.

Ambition

2011-09-19T21:05:00.003+08:00

Having a rather bad stomach upset at the moment. Not sure what I ate... I've been running regularly on mondays, thursdays and saturdays, but I guess today I'll have to take a break and perhaps run tomorrow. But good news! Its now the break week, and though I need to study for mid-terms that'll be coming next week, its a nice and good break from the hectic schedule of school.

Next week I've got a test on tuesday and two tests on wednesday, so I'm preparing hard for them. Besides that thank you guys for your support. I've managed to complete all my 3 submissions in the previous week satisfactorily, and now all that's left is to wait for results... Shall keep trusting on God for that, and like what was covered at SYC the past week, keep a good focus on God, cos ambition and achievement are nothing without Him. Also, I've now gotten a little more used to group assignments despite not liking them previously, because I've had good group mates to do them with.

In terms of leisure I've almost completed Assassin's Creed Brotherhood, with 100% sync, and the only things left are to get gold medals in 3 more virtual trainings and get the aconite for my last shop quest. Will finish with that one of these days.

Back to lying on the bed and rubbing my stomach. =S

Submission

2011-09-12T22:53:00.003+08:00

Submissions submissions! All of them are raining in but surprisingly I'm not keyed up at all. I'm working on them not with a sense of trepidation but a quiet confidence that God will do everything He can, and He's right by my side.

As usual, progress has been quick, and its a lot of waiting for other group members, but I'm thankful for good group mates who have a great work ethic. My first submission for this week just ended today with a successful group presentation about Generalized Anxiety Disorder. =) I put my trust in God and was duly rewarded. =)

Well nothing much else for now, so will update soon once this hectic week is over!

Daioh

2011-09-05T23:43:00.003+08:00

Apologies, for its been ages since I posted!

Well, school work is catching up to me, but with God's strength I will pull through. Specifically have 3 deadlines on the following week, though one of the group presentations is already settled. Left a solo project and a group proposal due. Besides that I've been rather fine. Busy doing readings, and over the past week all my weekday evenings were full with activities, which kind of restricted any time for other things.

The car's been giving a bit of problems with it stuttering whenever I come to a stop, so got it checked out and sent for maintenance with a hefty fee, but its now good as new, all clean and better than ever!

On thursday went with Vanessa and her family to go watch Tao: The Art of Drums at the Esplanade, and as a supporter of all things Japanese, watching the Japanese Drums being played was exciting, and they impressive thing is the incorporation of many aspects of the culture of drums: it being an aspect of war, work, history, mythology and leisure. Also the performances were so dynamic that there was never a dull moment. =)

Yup here's a pic.

Saturday's YE was a little nerve wracking, with the debate going on between both sides. My side was pretty quiet so had to step up. Thankful that Sherrill stepped up too... I guess I am pretty weak at rallying people for that kind of thing so gotta work on that. Vanessa was pretty shaken up by the build up of lots of stressors during the week, so had to be strong for her too, and I think I did a pretty good job of that. =)

And a happy birthday to her today! Went over to spend some time with her and give her some gifts. Can tell she really appreciated them and when that happened my heart soared. Could tell she was having the time of her life. =D

Other things: for leisure, I'm done with Chopin's Minute Waltz, which wasn't as tough as I envisioned it. Just a lot of finger dexterity involved. My next project will be Chopin's Nocturne Op.9 No.2. Its the most famous one everyone should've heard it before. Also, watching a new, rather cute anime: Azumanga Daioh. About the school life of a couple of funny girls, much like Lucky Star, except less random.

And a second pic! The characters from Azumanga Daioh. From the left Yomi, Osaka, Chiyo, Sakaki, Kagura and Tomo!

Well will update on how my deadlines are going, so keep tuning in! Sorry for the break in posting. =)

Naive

2011-08-26T21:44:00.003+08:00

In times of weakness when you've got someone understanding by your side it makes all the difference. Its something I hold very dear. In the army I've heard of unpleasant experiences regarding dating and such, but it doesn't look like its going to happen to me. And for that I give thanks! Its feels like Vanessa and I can weather any challenge together in God.

Tutorial classes have begun, and so far its not too much. I'm a week ahead with readings, so all's good. Also, the car's proving very useful, and now I don't have to leave the house so early, have my own personal space, and can travel at my own freedom. On that note, topped up my cashcard for the first time and felt a sense of achievement. =)

More to note would be about the tuition that I'm giving. I'm starting to build a good rapport with my students, talking to them about their interests and lifestyle in the time I'm there early or after classes. Just this wednesday I spoke to their parents about their advancement in terms of grammar, which they're progressing very quickly. Vocabulary is a lot more difficult, so they'll need more time. The parents want me to set more homework, which I'm ok with.

And then there's this issue of payment. Money's not the main issue for me so I didn't push for my salary, but my fellow tutors want to. I'm a little uncomfortable about that. And I've also somewhat been told that I don't know the meaning of "hard earned money". Well its just not my priority in all this. In this kind of working world issues, I'd like to keep my ethos, but people just keep telling me how naive it is. I'd rather be naive than back down on what I believe is right, but to each his own.

This experience really shows me how dark this world is, where even the strongest of Christians face many challenges and can get persecuted for their beliefs and ethos. What a sad and painful world we live in. Reminds me of Romans 8, where it states that all of creation is groaning. Right now that's what I feel, a deep despair about the fallen nature of this world. Its no wonder why people bring the world into the church instead of the church into the world.

But I won't be the person who'll do that. If I ever become like that, please hit some sense into me.

Initial D

2011-08-19T10:20:00.004+08:00

This week has been pretty tough in some ways, with a very draining day on wednesday to top things off, with lessons stretching from 10am to 6pm, then tuition from 7pm to 9pm, thus giving a rather tedious 11 hour work day. I was rather fatigued on that day, and if not for Vanessa would've been even more weary. Her advice and hearing ear seems all the more powerful now that we're together.

Getting used to the rhythm of juggling school and work, and now with the new car its been made easier, and there's the general sense that if I didn't have the car, things would've been worse. And I come to a realization that everything that is happening now is put in place just at the right time, for my life to advance. With a car, tuition, the things I'm learning in class, and Vanessa too, everything just comes together efficaciously. And with that I can see God working through it.

I've long wondered how I'll be able to keep my passion for God burning even in uni, seeing some Christian friends I know get lax and lose sight of God, and I've found out that there's no reason to worry or even think about it, for God works for the good of all those who love Him.

Well have started on some new leisure activities: the first being Assassin's Creed Brotherhood. And the second, because of my car, being the watching of Initial D the anime. It really gets me excited to drive most of the time haha. No drifting for sure though, cos my car's auto transmission hehe.

Well the anime's about a young 18 year old driver named Takumi Fujiwara who helps his dad out by delivering tofu in the dead of night on the winding mountain roads of Akina, and in so doing inevitably learns drifting, and all the essential skills and basics to be a road racer. He does so illegally before he gets his license, starting to help his dad from the age of 13, which explains his great skill. =O Eventually he's challenged to a road race, and despite being new to it, beats one of the best drivers and shoots to fame. That's the gist of it. =)

Here's a pic:

Yup that's Takumi and the car he drives: the panda black and white AE86 Toyota Trueno. Oh another thing to note: in the live action movie Jay Chou acts as Takumi hmm.

Well, tutorials begin next week, and after bidding I've gotten an alternate week monday friday free schedule, so every 2 weeks my weekend will be 5 days long, and my work weeks will be 4 days long, which is a great bonus!

As I slowly learn new stuff, I'll update you guys on what I've learnt. But for now I'll leave you in suspense! =)

Our Love Story

2011-08-15T10:24:00.004+08:00

Well, as most of you now know I'm now in a relationship with Vanessa, and you may be wondering what went on between both of us. It was a journey that you may have seen hints and glimpses of on this blog, but there's more to it than that, a story of God's grace and His realness.

It was back in 2010, after serve. Serve showed me the power, capabilities and wisdom I had to do God's work, and convinced me that no matter what that He would always be with me. It was a boost of confidence, that gave me the bravery to step forward into new endeavors.

However because of that period in serve, I now strongly felt that I was different from the rest of the people I knew: I didn't enjoy what they enjoyed, I sometimes couldn't understand what they understood, and I didn't act how they acted. I had sensed it innately before, but the realness of that fact stood looming behind me, because even surrounded by people who loved God wholeheartedly like myself, I was different, when I expected all of us to be the same.

The awareness of the gulf between myself and the rest of the people around me drove me to loneliness, during which my only support was God. He satisfied me, but that nagging feeling would come back to haunt me again. I wrote a secret post about my inner demon of loneliness, and prayed countless times about it.

All that changed on the 7th of June, 2010. It was the annual BBGB camp that I'd been asked by aunty KF to help in. I went there, expecting to serve the children and help them learn new things. And it was there I talked with Vanessa for the first time. Initially Regina and Aaron were supposed to help out, but Vanessa too joined at the last minute. It was something she did on the spur of the moment, as it was nearby, and Regina had asked. So she showed me her poems, and I showed her my ipod with Japanese and Christian songs, and that's how everything started.

She told me what drew her to me was my response when she asked what I thought about her poems. I looked at them and out of the sincerity of my heart, said what I thought what the poems were expressing, and it turned out that it was exactly what she wanted to say through those poems. (This I found out later on after we got closer)

And so everyday at night after that, without fail, we'd talk online. About the day, our interests, our families and lots of things under the sun and most importantly our thoughts and emotions pertaining to many issues. We did lots of random things: play msn games, I told her bedtime stories, we played FB games, we had times of Q&A about each other, and I did math and chem questions for her. I thoroughly enjoyed those moments. She was not only becoming a close friend, but the only friend who truely understood me, and shared my sentiments on many things. The main thing that I found special was that our worldview and approach to our relationship with God was the same. Many other things overlapped: our personalities, interest in music, ethos, attitudes towards adversity and so on. I didn't realize it at first, but that demon of loneliness disappeared somewhere along the way.

Initially there wasn't much thought given to it, but one night I was drawn to share one of the things I'd learnt from QT that night with her, and at that moment it struck me. She was the answer to my prayer so many months ago, and God, in all His grace, had given her to me for that very reason. It was a stunning revelation from the Holy Spirit. After that realization I broke down in the shower, crying tears of joy and thanking God from the bottom of my heart. (As I'm typing this I've started crying. T.T)

But at that moment, she was still just a very close friend to me. Then one day, she invited me to witness her playing in her guzheng competition. It was the start of December. I made my way down, sat in the stands, and waited for her to come on stage. She was shining, dazzling even. Some musicians say that when someone plays an instrument, sometimes they can see part of the persons soul emanating from the sound of the music. And that was what I saw. A beautiful soul, uninhibited, trying her best to do her family, friends and God proud. That was the moment you could say I "fell in love".

When I went home I thought hard to myself, my heart pounding. Did I really want this girl to be with me for the future? I had lots to think about, many things to consider. I'd never move forward if God wasn't there, if I wasn't prepared and ready, and if I didn't think she was the perfect one. Was she?

I wrestled with all that, asked God and asked my heart and mind. Asking God in that time of waiting on Him, He brought about mental images of times I'd quoted the bible to comfort her and provide her counsel, and the times when she did the same for me, reminding me of God's everlasting love and His comfort. He brought memories of observing her leaps and bounds in the music ministry, and the song she wrote. Also of how upright she was and how her actions poured forth from God's will and His word. And finally how He'd brought us together. That was one tick on the checklist in my head.

Next my heart. The comfort I felt when we talked, that moment when I saw her playing at the concert. That was attraction right there. I wanted to protect her and keep her safe. I wanted her to be happy. Another tick. Lastly my mind. I ran through the qualities that I'd find attractive in a partner. Someone with a love for music, could cook, wore no or little makeup, dressed decently, was quiet yet respectful and strong, liked anime and japanese things, loved God with all her heart. That was the final tick. I knew for sure it was the right thing to do. Now for when.

I had no idea. I asked God, and with her Os looming, it did seem like a poor time. There was no answer. But one thing I knew, He'd brought us this far, and in His time He'd prompt us to act. But one thing I knew, was that I had to get stronger, able to support both myself and her at the same time, not just emotionally, but spiritually as well. I had to make sure I'd still put God first even with her by my side, and that's what I slowly and silently worked on.

I drew closer to her, and she did the same. And at that point somehow we just knew that it was an eventuality. I let myself get closer, to see if God was still foremost in my heart. I admit there were times my heart would flutter and see only her, but God always put it right almost immediately. Eventually I saw God beside us everytime we were together, and that's when I knew the balance of our relationship was right.

I started going over to her place to tutor her, encourage her and accompany her, and she came over once to experience what it was like in my family. Eventually we also started constructing our family altar, and its been in place ever since, with us sharing what we've learnt from QT to encourage each other every night. After I taught SYC on the sermon on the mount this verse has come to represent our relationship: "Therefore what God has joined together, let no one separate." Not even our own moments of weakness and pain, will separate what God brought together in the first place.

Well, this post has been long. But I want to make clear my intentions for writing this post. Its not just to explain myself or keep people in the know, but give all glory to God. Its only right, for He has done so much for both of us, and is the one who brought us together. There's no doubt in my mind that He's a God who hears prayer, a God who knows our deepest needs, a God who gives strength in time of need, and a God who works for the best of those who love Him and wait on Him. This whole experience has been evidence of that. All glory to God.

One last thing: I love you, Vanessa. With all my heart, soul, mind and strength, not just with romantic feelings. Lets continue serving God together, always putting Him first, with an even stronger love than what we're giving each other. =D

Chevrolet

2011-08-12T08:34:00.004+08:00

Well, recently, especially this week there have been loads of changes to my lifestyle. Most notably the restarting of school. Just went down for lecture yesterday to my first developmental psychology lecture, which I expected to be rather dreary going, but was actually rather insightful! The bonus about it was that we got to watch some rather cute vids of children, which certainly was enjoyable.

Besides that, went to explore U-town with Dan, which was certainly impressive. The compound really does seem like a great place to live and study simultaneously. With a gigantic starbucks, koufu, fish and co express and other good stuff. Went up to Dan's room at the tembusu building, and got to see my lecture theater for my Food and Health module. The facilities are amazing, so can't wait to be there for lectures. =)

Other new things include a new car! As mentioned in previous posts my dad and I have been going to check out cars, and we've decided on one and have bought it! A yellow Chevrolet Aveo! I quite like the fact that the Chevrolet insignia looks like a cross. =D A pic for you: (its not the actual one though the plate on this one shows its from the UK)

And with that now my expenses are going to rise, so with that have also started a 40 dollar per hour tuition session, for 2 hours per session on wednesday evenings and sunday mornings. That'll cover a good bit of my fuel and maintenance costs, with a good bit to spare. However its only for around 2 months I believe, but God always does provide. =)

And the special thing about the car and tuition is that they're both really really big firsts, opening up whole new worlds that I've never ever explored yet. And I'm thankful to God for opening doors, its a really wonderful thing to know that He goes before, behind and with you!

For All You've Done

2011-08-08T08:18:00.002+08:00

Its now 4 days to the start of school, with a considerably relaxed week in front of me. Things to highlight will be national day on tuesday, the commencement of my first lecture and a leader's meeting on thursday, and of course a YE session on saturday. Definitely a relaxed one.

Can't wait to get to school again!

And despite me thinking I'd take ages to complete Assassin's Creed 2, it is now finished, and 100% completionist except the downloadable content of course, with 100% trophies, all secret treasure chests, statuettes, treasures, viewpoints, quests, feathers, glyphs all collected. =D Also, Tristesse is definitely finished. Which is rather good, because the timing is really just right.

My mom's birthday was on Saturday, and we went to Buffettown at Raffles City to eat. Definitely value for money. With a enormously huge selection, tasty food, good service attitude and ambience, its definitely a great choice for a night of good buffet. We had a really good time there, and my mom was really content. She's quite a food critic, and her only complaint was the soft shell crab being too fishy. So that's a big positive right there. =)

The realization that God is good and in control always comes back to hit me time and again. There's never been a single moment to doubt His goodness, and my life is a testament to that. My QT on Acts has let me to think: what if I didn't have the Holy Spirit in the first place? All that I've achieved wouldn't have been possible. The clarity of thought about the bible and the God I love, the confidence that God is always with me, the wonderful talents and moments I've spoken for the sake of others, the conviction to serve, the union in Christ with the people around me, my powerful ethos that I now live my life by, all I wouldn't have had.

Praise be to God. For what He's done, and who He is.

Fuel Economy

2011-08-03T12:46:00.003+08:00

Well bidding for this semester is over and done with, and I've loaded myself with lots of core modules, which I believe I can cope with! So here's the list:

PL2132 Statistics in Psychology 2
PL3234 Developmental Psych
PL3235 Social Psych
PL3236 Abnormal Psych
GEK 1529 Food and Health!

And here's my stipulated schedule for the week, which can of course be manipulated a bit. I might switch the tutorials around to make things comfortable. =)

Well next, Tristesse is almost over and done with, the next will be Minute Waltz, Op64 no. 1. It sounds really playful, a bit like a dog chasing its own tail, especially at the beginning. Looking forward to having 4 chopin songs in my repertoire. =)

My dad has been bringing me to look at second hand cars, and finally my eyes are opening to the rather unexplored territory of privately owned vehicles. For one, understanding some of the terms like horsepower, fuel consumption, COE and things like that. So far have seen 2, and looking for something with good fuel economy - which means I spend less on petrol. =D

So thats all for now! More updates will come. =)

22

2011-08-01T10:10:00.002+08:00

And so I'm a year older, looking older and definitely feeling older. Thanks to everyone for being my friend, and if there's one thing I've come to realise, that its not the presents that make a birthday special, but the presence of the people who you love. The best birthday present that I had was the fact that people stuck to me as their friend and family this whole year that has passed, and the memories we've created through that interaction. For that, thank you everybody.

As part of my birthday celebrations we had dimsum buffet lunch at harbourfront centre, which was enjoyable. I've been there with my NS friends before, and it did bring back good memories. Of Sgt Jesse driving us there when he'd just passed not long, of all of us ordering huge portions of food. Well despite that my family aren't as big eaters as them so we sort of ordered a whole lot less than what we would've ordered. =P And we found out that my mom didn't know the meaning of midnight hmm.

I've gone down to matric fair twice over the past week, and it was a rather interesting experience being behind the scenes and operating a booth. It took real courage to approach people to speak to them, and that was what I gained. =) Well, the nav booth was right at the end of the fair, so people were just rushing off. Nevertheless, we managed to speak to quite a large sum of people who were interested. =D But most of all, the navs approach really touched me. What their aim was was not to get more people into the navs, but serve and give support to those who needed it. That was very special to me, it was the thing that drew me to them in the first place. =D

So YE will be back to its normal timeslot, with youth month ended and the outreach events with synthesis coming to an end. I must say that God was there with us for sure, and our bonds of unity have defintiely been strengthened through it. There were a few people who came, and I give thanks for the seed sown in their hearts. Looking forward to more collaborations in future!

And lastly piano stuff... Went for a piano recital with Amos, of one of his piano teacher's church members. It was small, but homely, the kind of concert that I'd like to have with my friends if I can afford it. The piano playing was fluent; some of it lacked virtuosity - the x-factor that differs from pianist to pianist, but it was definitely God centred and heartfelt. Also, Tristesse is coming to an end, with only 6 bars left till a complete mastery of the song. Hooray! Almost to 3 songs by chopin done. Next one will be his Minuet Waltz. =)

One last thing. It just so happened that my QT material ended on my birthday, so now I've gotten some from SKS, the John Stott bible studies for Acts. Shall split the 20 studies into 3 parts each and that'll last for some time. =)

Thank you once again, and till next time, fair thee well. =D

600

2011-07-26T13:15:00.002+08:00

And so it is now time to start on the 600th post! I must say that it's been a long and rewarding journey with my blog. All the emotions, thoughts and occurrences poured into it make it worthwhile and rather rewarding to keep up the posting. So here goes: a recap of the past 100 posts. =)

Post 502: Youth Month!
Post 503: First solo drive. =)
Post 504: World cup ends, with Spain defeating Netherlands 1-0
Post 508: First bidding for uni modules!
Post 510: 21st birthday! Getting stronger everyday =)
Post 512: First semester begins with History Lecture!
Post 514: YOG coverage!
Post 516: First tutorials in NUS.
Post 518: First NUS assignment complete! Easy peasy!
Post 520: First break week in NUS... Relax.
Post 522: First Test in NUS completed... So many firsts...
Post 526: Solemnization of vows for my cousin Elaine!
Post 528: SYC AGM. Serious stuff. =)
Post 530: BLOG's 6th birthday!
Post 533: 1 year ORD anniversary. Celebrate!
Post 537: Captain's Ball tournament, first series of exams in uni complete! Term ends.
Post 538: Vanessa's gz comp. =D
Post 542: YE transits to saturdays.
Post 545: YE chalet, MBS, Taiwan trip
Post 546: Christmas, Blessed with good results~!
Post 553: Beginning of a new semester.
Post 555: Tiring day - Serve Inauguration
Post 559: Getting closer to the Navigators =D
Post 560: Gihon Steamboat!
Post 564: Second mid term break in uni!
Post 566: End of the Roman's training at SAC
Post 567: Chopin without Chopin concert!
Post 568: Japan's earthquake. Jishin.
Post 573: Wrote my first anime based QT material =P
Post 575: Year as a freshman ends. Sophomore time!
Post 576: Vanessa's concert!
Post 578: Easter... To You Alone.
Post 580: Singapore elections. =S
Post 584: KL trip with Sherman and Andy!
Post 586: Results are out, COGS carnival!
Post 589: 1 year of friendship! =D
Post 592: Mega Games Day.
Post 593: Triangle plate comes off! 1 year of driving over.
Post 596: IPPT passed!
Post 597: Hit 100 anime!
Post 600: Here we are!

Cheers to another 100 posts finished. Its taken 1 year to get to this stage, and I'm more than blessed. Well enjoy the new skin, and we'll keep on counting the blessings of God here on this blog, which overflow beyond what any of us can imagine. God bless, and keep with me for the next 100 yeah? =)

Ansatsu

2011-07-18T22:18:00.003+08:00

Next post is 600!

Well, it is gonna be one hectic week... With setting up for matric fare for the Navigators tomorrow, going down to church to oversee Aaron and Amos while they study, thursday being at matric fair itself, friday with syc, most likely saturday with Gihon and then YE, and playing for main on sunday. That's not all, with another trip to the matric fair on monday. One busy week that!

Now I can really tell that school's starting up again. Not forgetting bidding round 0 commencing on the 21st and real bidding on the 25th... That will keep things a little tight as well. Also, my birthday is coming... Really turning 22 soon, and looking forward to it! I've really grown to be confident in the way I carry myself in the past few years after I turned 20, and looking forward to more as I grow older.

Resonance of Fate is over and done with! So now it's on to Assassin's Creed 2, which my cousin Serene has so nicely lent. Though my OCD is complaining about the number 2 at the back of that title, without playing the first in the series it's ok cos the character changes from the flagship game, which makes it at least a little more tolerable.

Well till the next post! A review of the past 100 posts is in order. =D

Chauffeur

2011-07-14T13:04:00.003+08:00

2 more posts to 600!

To celebrate the occasion, was thinking of switching skins, but not very adept at it after forgetting everything after leaving school and not having computer lessons any more. I'm not a very tech savvy person, I'll admit. So I'll most likely be asking here and there for help. =)

Recently, especially this week, I've become sort of a designated driver, or a chauffeur in a good way. Driving Daryl around to school and back, and sending Darren into his 3 weeks of confinement at the Warrior's Hall at SAFTI MI. Also driving to dinner on certain days. Must say that I enjoy it, the freedom of having a vehicle I can use for the benefit of others.

Prepared for SYC bible study on sermon on the mount. And its a rather difficult topic to cover: Divorce and Oaths from Matthew 5:31-37. However there are a few biblical principles that can be drawn from those to apply to any other situation, and I hope I can bring these across well. Have decided to use a new medium of teaching, and see whether my cell members can appreciate it. =P

Next, updates on the leisure portion of my life. Resonance of Fate is almost done and complete, all that's left is collecting 3 more trophies, which include throwing 1000 grenades, of which I have thrown around 800+, and finishing the game a second time. The bonus dungeon is over and done with. Anime has reached 100 with the completion of Fate Stay Night, which explains the list posted previously. Practising for Chopin's Tristesse is still at the end of the second page. And finally, the story's at chapter 10 already! Fast. =D

Well, holidays are winding down, and what marked that fact is that the time has once again come to utilize the module preference exercise. I'll be doing a lot of psych modules hopefully.
PL2132 - Stats in Psych 2
PL3234 - Developmental Psych
PL3235 - Social Psych
PL3236 - Abnormal Psych

The last module will be a General Education Module, but haven't decided what it is yet hmm.

Anime List 100

2011-07-12T23:57:00.000+08:00

Ah My Goddess + Fighting Wings + Flights Of Fancy

Akazukin Cha Cha

Akira

Angel Sanctuary

Angelic Layer

Avatar

Ayakashi

Ayashi No Ceres

Basilisk

Beck

Black Lagoon + The Second Barrage + Roberta's Blood Trail (still ongoing)

Bleach (still ongoing)

Blood+

Bokusatsu Tenshi

Boys Be

Chobits

Chrono Crusade

Clannad + After Story

Cooking Master Boy

Cowboy Bebop

Curious Play

D Gray Man

Devil May Cry

Digimon Adventure 1 + 2 + Tamers

Dragon Ball + Z + GT + Kai

E's Otherwise

Elfen Lied

Fairy Tail (Still ongoing)

Fate Stay Night

Final Fantasy Unlimited

Flame of Recca

Fruits Basket

Full Metal Alchemist + Brotherhood

Full Metal Panic + Fumoffu + Second Raid

Gatekeepers + 21

Getbackers

Ghost Hound

Gintama

Girls Bravo

Ghost in the Shell + Stand Alone Complex + Innocence + 2nd Gig + Solid State Society

Grander Musashi

Gravitation

Great Teacher Onizuka

Gunslinger Girl + Il Teatrino

Hellsing

History's Strongest Disciple Kenichi

I My Me Strawberry Eggs

Inukami!

K-On + Second Season

Kaleido Star

Karas

Kimi Ni Todoke + Season 2

The Legend of Condor Heroes

Lucky Star

Maburaho

Magikano

Mahou Sensei Negima + Negima!?

My Hime

Mai Otome + Zwei

Muteki Kanban Musume

NANA

Naruto + Shippuuden (still ongoing)

Neon Genesis Evangelion + Death + Rebirth + You Are (Not) Alone

Ninku

Noein

Now and Then, Here and There

One Piece (still ongoing)

Ouran High School Host Club

Powerstone

Prince Of Tennis

Princess Tutu

Prism Ark

Rave

Rental Magica

Revolutionary Girl Utena

Ronin Warriors

Rosario Vampire + Kappuchu

Rurouni Kenshin

Sailormoon + R + S + SuperS + Stars

Saiyuki + Reload + Gunlock + Requiem + Interactive + Burial

Sakura Wars

Samurai 7

Samurai Champloo

Scrapped Princess

Scryed

Shaman King

Shounen Onmyouji

Shuffle! + Memories

Slayers + Next + Try + Revolution + Evolution-R

Steam Detectives

Tenjou Tenge + OVA

Tokyo Majin Gakuen Kenpucho Tou + Second Act

Tsubasa Chronicle

Trinity Blood

Vandread

Witch Hunter Robin

You're Under Arrest

Yu Yu Hakusho

Yugioh + GX + 5D

Yumeria

Total: 100 and counting.

IPPT

2011-07-07T19:56:00.001+08:00

And so I've passed IPPT! God's brought me through once again. =D

Fate Stay Night

2011-07-04T14:58:00.005+08:00

The first outreach session with synthesis was a really fresh experience. It's taking some getting used to, but I must say I enjoyed it. Quite apologetic because of the fact that there wasn't a lot of people from Gihon there so had to rely on Synthesis's LIFE cell for the ushering. Felt quite bad cos of it, because it was our duty after all. Oh wells there's one more at the end of the month that we can make up for!

Well, another busy week is coming up! For one a scary IPPT appointment on tuesday at 5pm, which I hope I'll pass. I think I can but you'll never know. Next, a leaders meeting on wednesday, SYC on friday, Music Min Orientation on saturday before outreach, and finally playing for Sunday. Its pretty intense but once tuesday's over I'll be much more relieved for the rest of the week.

So updates, updates. For Resonance of Fate at the final chapter, finishing up the arena and the troply collection. Left with the bonus dungeon, which I believe will be insanely difficult, and the last bits of the final dungeon. With two bosses in that one down the only one left is the last boss. After that, one last playthrough for the last trophy and we'll have 2 games with 100% trophy collection soon. =)

Done with Witch Hunter Robin, and the next is Fate Stay Night, which is a really popular anime. Haven't watched it yet so can't give my verdict yet. But here's a pic.

Well once I pass my IPPT I'll go a bit easy on my running, doing that only 2-3 times a week just to keep fit. Currently at 11 pull ups! Tuesday will be the important day I guess. Please pray for me, I've had my fair share of failing it before NS cos of pull ups and those times were so disappointing. Now the only worry is running, but I think I'm up to speed. Of course, I need prayer still so please do keep me in yours alright. =D

5 posts to 600!

Open My Eyes, Lord

2011-06-30T10:55:00.002+08:00

Open my eyes, Lord, that I may see...
My haste to say, "You are wrong,"
My hesitance to say, "I am to blame,"
My frowns when the other guy or other team wins,
My smiles when I cross the finish line first,
My twenty twenty vision at finding cracks in others' character,
My halfhearted efforts to spot any flaws in myself.

Open my ears, Lord, that I may hear...
My laughter at the expense of others,
My cries when tables turn and the joke's on me,
My whoops when something awful happens to those I don't like,
My sighs when I'm the one who is kicked in the teeth,
My shouts when I detect sin in others,
My whispers when I am confessing my own.

Open my mind, Lord, that I may know...
My hardheadedness towards those who think I'm a jerk,
My open-mindedness toward those who know I'm Mr. Right,
My recall of "place and time" when I've been wronged,
My forgetfulness of "when and how" I've hurt others,
My doubt that others have a snowball's chance of escaping hell,
My belief that I deserved heaven all along.

Open my heart, Lord, that I may feel...
My hatred of sin when others are doing the sinning,
My love of sin when it's my hand in the cookie jar,
My judgment of those whose skin or beliefs differ from mine,
My compassion toward those who are basically just like me,
My rejection of those with a smudge on their cheek,
My acceptance of myself, despite the mud on my face.

Adapted from Rick Christian's Devotion for Students, November 28th.

One week till IPPT, and 6 posts to 600. =)

Only Human

2011-06-26T21:24:00.004+08:00

Well, its only human to err. And err I did, terribly too I must add. Got angry over certain things I never should really let get the better of me, things only said in jest, and in that state of vulnerability I lost God along the way. And I'm only thankful that these things aren't counted against me after I sincerely seek Him once again. After all, despite being a leader and all, I'm only human, trying my best to overcome my weaknesses and flaws. Its God's grace that makes all this possible, and I'm thankful.

The triangle plate on the car is now off, and I'm now officially in my second year of driving. As for Tristesse, I'm done with the first page and moving on to relatively more challenging portions of the song on the second page.

More updates include the watching of a couple of new series, which will bring my anime tally eventually to 100 finally. Once I reach 100 shall post the entire list on the blog. Most recent anime I've watched would be Witch Hunter Robin. About a girl with the ability to manipulate fire having to hunt down other ability users called "witches" who turn evil and crazy after discovering and misusing their abilities.

As usual, a pic! This one's of the main character in the series: Sena Robin.

More on the leisure front, I'm at the second last chapter: chapter 15 out of 16 of Resonance of Fate. Which is great! Gonna finish it, go for the bonus dungeon, and then speed run through it one more time to get the last few trophies. And once that's done can finally start on the games my cousin lent.

This week shall be a week of rest, have no outstanding church related work to do, no very important things that need to be prepared for, so I'll take it and cherish it.

About Games

2011-06-20T14:10:00.003+08:00

And so the games day went by splendidly, with the making of new friends and forging of new bonds, and I must say I'm rather excited about the prospects of joint collaborations between Synthesis and YE. I was rather worried initially, but everything panned out pretty good. =)

Which brings me to reflect about why I've always been uptight when it comes to games, and here's where I bring you on a trip back into my memories. (Which we haven't done in a long time)

And so all the way back in primary 5. I was still a game loving person, especially when my form teacher praised me for my sporting actions during games, even daring to do forfeits for the sake of others and things like that. Because of that bit of encouragement, it made all the difference. Forfeits or being embarrassed didn't matter one bit to me at that time.

But all that changed just that year, with my first ever YE camp. And so there were games, which I participated gladly in, until this one charades game where we had to act out the underlined words in the bible verses. And I stepped up to do it, thinking that it'd be alright as usual. And I tried and tried to act it out but couldn't get anyone to solve it. Then after that the person in charge of the game told me this was how I should have done it... And when I saw the disappointed look on the faces of my team members I couldn't help but feel inadequate, especially when the way to act it out could have been so easy.

From then on my weariness in games became fixed, as if ingrained within me. I gained a fear of being embarrassed and letting my team down. Solo games were alright... But team games made me quiver in fear. From then on I knew the power of positive encouragement and a smile, because I didn't see it that day. And I knew that no matter what the outcome of games, to give the person giving his or her all that one smile would make things different.

Well, this fear still didn't mean hatred for games yet, perhaps only avoidance. But what happened when I was in sec 2 or 3 really changed everything. It was when my sense of integrity was beginning to form and going strong. A random indoor games day came along, and I was volunteered to be one of those up in front with a card containing the name of a character on my forehead, and asking questions to get my "identity". There were 4 of us called up, and we stood in front, asking the rest questions. Eventually everyone got theirs right, except me. I was well and truly stuck for awhile, but managed to narrow it down quite a good bit.

And then the unimaginable happened. Someone in the audience mouthed the answer to me, and I stood there horrified. Through that supposed act of kindness I was stuck in a moral dilemma. I could do one of two things. Say out the answer, and have my integrity broken, or stay there and suffer the forfeit. And I chose the latter. That wasn't just it. I stood in front for a good 15 minutes for them to figure out what forfeit I had to do, just because it was in the "rules" of the game, a penalty for failing miserably for the sake of protecting my integrity.

From then on I just saw how evil games could be, to the extent of you having to sacrifice your own sense of morality in order to be "safe" from punishment. From then on I saw games as bringing out the worst in human nature, and hated it to the core. And trust me, I've seen that "worst" a lot of times along the way. And that's why I make certain to follow every rule, and not try to look for loopholes in a game to gain an advantage, playing it fair and square.

Well, all that is now behind me, and I must say because of recent games days this fear and hatred has died down to a whimper. And credits go to the organizers and the people involved. For one, that smile and encouragement is now always present, and the games organizers choose not to put in a reward or punishment system, letting it be games for the sake of fun. Kudos to them for that. And I'm thankful. I've overcome it thanks to them.

But I never want anyone else to come to the same point of suffering as me when it comes to games. And I hope no one around me will.

Escape

2011-06-18T00:29:00.003+08:00

Well tomorrow's the day that I'm really nervous about: Mega Games Day. For one, its games, which I've some how gotten used to. But the next thing would be interacting with new people, which I'm always quite jittery about. Oh wells I'll just take it in my stride and enjoy myself. Hope everything goes well tomorrow!

This week so far has been pretty alright, considering the way I was thinking it would be tiring. Turns out the only thing that I think will tire me out will be tomorrow. Wednesday went well, with cell at Juan's house being rather lively, with everyone sharing about their hols and us talking about the sinfulness we all have and thus our hope in Jesus. Thoroughly enjoyed it and hope they did too. =) Ah finally a massage chair to relax on after so long hehe! =P

Ah and thursday! Lots of firsts which I give thanks for. =D

Lastly, Daryl and I have been trying room escape games, and have managed to do some of them with the power of our combined intellect. For those interested, please visit this site:
http://neutralxe.net/esc/index.html

No cheating and searching for guides online alright!

Well I'll update you guys again once tomorrow's over with! And... 9 posts to 600!

Another June

2011-06-12T22:53:00.004+08:00

And so, 10 posts to 600.

And about 2 weeks left to taking off the triangle plate while driving.

I must say this week has left me a little tired. For one, every single day I've been waking up at 7am for no apparent reason... Which has left me with bouts of interrupted sleep, and the problem is that if I do go back to sleep for rest's sake I'd end up waking at around 11am, which is quite a problem for the completion of my daily to do list. If I choose not to sleep I'd end up very tired around night time. I've tried drawing the curtains to reduce the amount of external light, but it wasn't of much help... Any solutions?

The end of this week too was rather rough, with an almost forgotten music ministry meeting, an enjoyable SYC session that ended rather late, leading songs in YE and lastly playing for main service. This coming week will somewhat be along the same lines, with a simple Gihon cell session coming on wednesday, SYC on friday, and playing for Mega Games Day in both senses of the word (playing keys and games haha). Probably will turn down the request to play for main on Sunday again.

Its a typical June with the busyness, but I'm beginning to feel a bit of the strain, especially from leading songs. I do enjoy it, and I'm often blessed by it... But often because its not my natural gifting, it does tire me out to quite an extent. Unlike things like playing the bass and teaching at bible studies. Well at this moment of time I'll just keep working hard at it, and look forward to see more worship leaders being groomed in YE! =)

One last thing to note... I'm now into chapter 6 of my story! Good progress finally on one of my resolutions for age 21-24, which you can see on my sidebar of my blog. =D

Ghost In The Shell

2011-06-08T14:18:00.003+08:00

11 posts to 600!

Well I'm almost done with Grande Valse Brilliante... Just a few bits of tying up to do, with portions on the 8th and 9th page still causing a bit of trouble here and there. But I think I can declare it finished within the week! This piece was certainly at a level higher than Raindrops, mostly because of the speed and the muscle memory involved, and the sheer length of it. But it was thoroughly enjoyable, allowing me to showcase part of my livelier side.

And shall move on to Chopin's Tristesse soon. Quite excited about that, which will be a stark contrast from the waltz that I just finished. Time to switch moods from playful to melancholy. Soon I'll be playing 3 pages of a song that Chopin himself labelled as the best melody he'd ever written.

Besides that I'm now halfway through Resonance of Fate, which is pretty slow. Being the perfectionist gamer that I am, made sure I got through every dungeon getting every item, finishing every quest and fighting every arena fight.

More on leisure: I'm now getting close to the 100 anime mark, so now I'm watching Ghost in the Shell, a futuristic anime where humans have learnt how to store their consciousness in cyber brains, allowing for the mechanization of their bodies. Its about a crime fighting team tackling all sorts of cyber crime that arise from this new development in technology. Pretty interesting I must say.

And here's Motoko Kusanagi, the main protagonist of this series.

Also I've now hit 10 pull ups and have been running 2.4km everyday in preparation for IPPT.

Lastly, yesterday signified the beginning of the second year of friendship for Vanessa and I, so went over to her place to spend the time with her in celebration of this day. 7th June 2010. You guys may be wondering why this day is so important, after all we've all got many friends, who we've known for many years without celebrating this kind of thing.

But this is special for both of us: the way that God brought us together was nothing short of amazing. Two like minded individuals with many things in common, able to understand each other amazingly well, brought together at a random BB GB junior camp which she might not even have turned up at. Its a happening that we both believe is God's wonderful grace for us. And since then life has never been the same. And I have to say, we've certainly brought each other closer to God throughout this year of friendship, and that is special for sure.

Looking from the start of the holidays till now, lots of things have advanced, and I'm certainly thankful for that. And there's only one person I can truly give thanks to. Thank you God. =D

Unearthly

2011-06-05T06:29:00.002+08:00

So, ended up waking up an unearthly hour today, have no idea why. My eyes are tired but my brain is not, so I suppose I'll be back in bed after this post, listening to music till I fall asleep once again.

Before this post I was thinking about this week, and how typical each day must have been, but now thinking back, there was actually a lot of new stuff that happened to me over this week, which I'm really quite thankful for. At my age when you're mostly thinking: here I am old and not so youthful any more; it's really encouraging to be experiencing new things even despite that fact.

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So on Wednesday, went to meet Sam at SMU, my first visit to his/Steph's/Ernest's uni of choice, and I must say even from the visit to only one of the many portions of the campus, I was thoroughly impressed by the sophistication of the architecture at first glance. It certainly gave of an air of being a premiere facility for education. Also liked the seminar rooms very much, because the windows overlooking the outside were full length glass ones, so you could see beyond.

Spectacularly, it rained heavily, allowing me to enjoy the beauty of nature even within the confines of the four walls of the room, for that I give the campus's architects credit. So Sam and I were discussing the 3 exercises that we had to tackle for Bible Study Leader's Training, and we had a good time doing that. After finishing with that, we played a bit of Catan online, and won! =)

It might have been a simple experience, and a simple time of fellowship, but it had its significance, as you will see later. And I'd say God's hand was in it for certain.

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Thursday was the day of YE leader's meeting, and after an insightful devotion led by Shuling we continued on to a lot of other new information. One thing I like about such meetings are the involvement of the young uns, especially Hannah who was there throughout. If there's one thing I like about Pastor William's approach it would be this, letting the members listen in on the decision making of the leaders, and giving them a sense of ownership of YE as well.

July is going to be an amazingly busy but at the same time fulfilling month, as YE will be joining Synthesis for a month long time of evangelism, something that we have never embarked on before, and I must say I'm looking forward to it.

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Friday was especially filled with many new experiences. For one my first taste of sogurt or in other words frozen yoghurt, which I thoroughly enjoyed. It seemed that chocolate didn't mix well with the rest of the fruity flavours though haha. Besides that, a grudge match against an old nemesis: chemistry, during which I had to use wiki a couple of times to refresh my memory of certain things. And of course, the company I had through it all made it a great day.

A simple, yet extremely satisfying day to say the least.

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Saturday. My first time teaching 3 chapters of bible study in a row, which was slightly stressful because of all the adults, and also that I had not expected to be asked to teach. It was a good thing I was in a way involved in the preparation for that leader's training, and why I mentioned that God's hand was in this. For certain reasons Sam had to leave for KL, and it was extremely fortuitous that I had been there with him on wednesday, making me well prepared to teach.

And I'm thankful because despite the late notice, despite the stress God was still in control, and in my heart there wasn't even a shred of hesitation, irritation or a begrudging attitude. He was there with me for sure. Given, after it I was pretty mentally drained, but it was a good experience for me to have. =)

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Makes me wonder what the weeks ahead hold. These may be just simple holidays, with a daily routine and a to do list to strike off everyday, but yet each day is different, a day blessed with God's presence and made special. Each and every moment of my living. With that I'll never be bored for sure, because I have God.

Some people ask me why I don't take this time to work. Well, that's not what I find most important in this life. It's just that simple.

Happyoushimasu!

2011-05-30T13:45:00.003+08:00

And so results are out! Did pretty well this semester, better than the first even. So I'm pretty thankful! Here are the results:

Bio Psych: B
Cognitive Psych: A
Japanese Studies: B+
Japanese: A-
Science of Music: A+

CAP: 4.40
Total CAP for 2 semesters: 4.30

Edging closer to being in the Dean's List! =D Keep up the good work Ben! And thank you God for your providence. =)

Besides that over the past few days have been driving a lot, sending my bro to and from school, and using the car on weekends. One thing that I'm starting to dislike about it is my penchant to get irritated by awkward situations like barriers not opening when they should and a long queue forming behind me. But oh well driving is sometimes like that and I've got to exercise better self control.

But one thing I'm beginning to internalize is the fact that I'm not perfect and I have my moments of weakness. The important thing is to learn from that, and yet at the same time move on and not blame myself any more because of it. I think I'm finally learning how to truly forgive myself, which is another good thing.

Ah well 13 posts to 600!

Funfest

2011-05-26T22:34:00.005+08:00

And so the church carnival's drawing nearer, and I'm getting pretty excited about it. Wanna play some band hero. But besides all that I'd like to call all my fellow church mates to prayer for this event. Haven't heard of a special prayer session just for this event, and though we might not have one, lets not leave it just like that.

To all COGS people out there. Just for a few minutes after you read this, drop all you're doing right now, and ask God with all your heart for His will to be done in all this busyness and excitement. And I'm sure we'll have a great day on saturday.

So 10am to 4pm! COGS funfest. We're near Queenstown MRT, turn to the left after you exit the mrt and walk past the seemingly abandoned gated building and you'll reach our church. =D

Unlimited

2011-05-23T19:55:00.003+08:00

Well, finally I've started watching an anime that I've been intending to catch a glimpse of for a long long time: Final Fantasy Unlimited. Sort of loosely based on the Final Fantasy Series, but with a whole plot of its own. Some things shared with final fantasy games is the inclusion of summons and the lovable chocobo! Cos of that I think I'll finish it pretty quick.

Chocobo! =D Cute and cuddly... Its times like this I want a chocobo plushie hehe.

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Besides that, have been really really busy with the games stall for the carnival... Well every time I think I finish off the work that has to be done for it, more comes along. Its not the doing of the tasks that make me fatigued, but the sense of not being given complete instructions so I can finish the task in one go. Every time I'm supposed to have struck it off my to do list it comes back to haunt me in a way haha. Oh well, its part of being part of a big carnival, the tiredness and spontaneity so I'm not too flustered by it.

Got a few things left to do: cut out some rectangles from corrugated plastic to support the boards, edit the instruction board to show the different scoring system, get a roster out, and lastly and perhaps make a second board (which I think is unlikely cos we'd need double the manpower for the stall if so).

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Today, I awoke at 4am... =.= Not knowing what to do I took a look at my old posts, those I wrote when I was sec4. I must say, there are some parts of me that haven't changed, and some parts that have. The most obvious changes are that of priority and stability, but for the most the 5 posts I wrote when I was discovering myself still hold true up till now. When it all began I lamented the fact that I had no idea what my identity in Christ was... But now I know full well, and I'm perfectly glad with it. =D This morning was a good time of reflecting on the reason why God has put me where I am, and I'm thankful for it.

No worries, I slept again at 7am and woke up at 1130am.

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Since it's holidays, I've been playing Resonance of Fate, exercising (pull ups and running), practicing Chopin's Grande Valse Brilliante, and trying to continue with writing my simple fantasy novel. =) Making good progress in all those fronts.

Lastly, its been almost a year since I've gotten my driver's license, so in a month's time the triangle plate will be off! I must say I still dislike driving in peak period traffic, but I'll have to do it regularly eventually so we'll see how that goes.

15 posts to 600~!

Truly Asia...

2011-05-17T19:51:00.004+08:00

Well time for my post on KL!

It was a whole lot of firsts for me, and travelling with my friends from Navigators made the whole experience a really meaningful and enjoyable one. For one I was able to hear lots of their own experiences when it came to their church live and leading others, and also their own doubts and worries. And I really look forward to continuing to encourage them and let them encourage me as we all go about our uni lives with God in control.

I went there still remembering the trauma of past experiences in Malaysia, the time when my family's MPV was stolen at one of the Juscos in Malaysia... And 10 of us had to squeeze into an old, small, Mercedes Benz with a faulty aircon. That was certainly an upsetting experience, and since then I've harboured ill feelings towards Malaysia as a country. It was a time to be rid of those negative biases and truly learn to love even a place that hurt me so badly.

We went to a whole lot of different places and here's a list:
1. Chinatown - Petaling Street
2. Central Market
3. St John's Church
4. Bukit Nanas Eco Park
5. KL/Menara Tower
6. Bukit Bintang Shopping District
7. Merdeka Stadium (outside only)
8. KL Old Railway Station
9. Malaysia Police Museum
10. Deer Park (outside only)
11. Bird Park (outside only)
12. Hibiscus Park
13. Suria KLCC
14. Aquaria KLCC
15. Petronas Gallery
16. Batu Caves
17. Templer Park
18. Petronas Twin Towers

Quite a large number of places for 4 days, but totally worthwhile. We spent quite a bit on good food, entrance fees and stuff for our families and friends. For me the trip cost 400 sing dollars, but it could've been considerably less.

All in all, I'm grateful for God's provision during this trip, it couldn't have been possible without Him. =)

Here are some pics!

We took a train down. =D

Not forgetting the most important person during our trip: Jesus!

Malaysia's National Flower: The Hibiscus!

Finally, the iconic Petronas Twin Towers.

To see the rest of the pics on facebook, go to this address: http://www.facebook.com/media/set/?set=a.10150186353873123.314672.564793122&l=2f42d177cb

Back

2011-05-14T01:07:00.000+08:00

Well, went to KL and am back! Will do a post on it soon...

Could I Ever

2011-05-07T15:22:00.002+08:00

Of all the strange things I could've dreamt I dreamt that I wasn't a Christian, and I was running away from all those people chasing after me, wanting to convert me into one. It was certainly one crazy dream, with epic chase scenes to boot. =.=

And after that dream, I awoke, thinking about the reality that could've been if I hadn't been called by God in that very moment in that camp seven years ago. Given my personality and penchant for sticking to my beliefs, I might have chosen to reject this relationship with God and never ever have become a Christian. And that very thought scares me, and makes me thankful that that fateful day, God chose me as one of His own, to have this very special relationship with Him.

And this song came to mind.

Could I Ever - Planetshakers

When I woke up today
And thought of all the things You’d done
I find myself here
Feeling oh so overcome

You gave Your life away for me
Truly my heart belongs to You
So let me say

How could I ever thank You for
What You did at Calvary
When You bled and died for me
How could I ever turn away
Knowing that You paid the price
That I could never pay

When I think of the way
That You died upon that Cross
Bearing my sin
Even though my heart was lost

You gave Your life away for me
Truly my heart belongs to You
So let me say

How could I ever thank You for
What You did at Calvary
When You bled and died for me
How could I ever turn away
Knowing that You paid the price
That I could never pay

Well, at this moment its the time of the year when I wind down and take a breather from all the rush of school, and its this moment when I feel extremely comforted and blissful. And I can't help but just give thanks for everything up till this moment.

Kekkai

2011-05-02T11:46:00.003+08:00

Well, I've finished with Saiyuki, and the next anime that I'll be catching is one called Kekkaishi. An anime with a rather interesting concept of defeating demons using barriers to catch them. The fight scenes are pretty good imo. Well here's a pic. The main character has responsibility thrust on him, because of a mark on the palm of his hand, by night he defends the school from evil spirits and by day he trains, sleeps in class and tries to make delicious pastries for the girl he likes who is also a Kekkaishi.

Here's a pic:

But besides that I was thinking about barriers between people, and the discrimination that occurs between people. Constant themes that I've been seeing since the ending of the semester. With the movie about stereotyping of Japanese Koreans in Japanese studies class, with this whole thing about politics, and also the issues about foreign talents in Singapore. Also, the fishmen vs human thing in One Piece, the differences between shinobi countries in Naruto... All these have led me to think...

Like Sugihara (the main charcter in the film that I watched) inferred... The only thing different between the essence of two groups of people are merely imagined differences, and I too believe that. If only everyone is able to break those imaginary barriers surrounding themselves and reach out to others, the world would be a whole lot more wonderful.

And I've been thinking about what we've been doing in YE about Romans and about judgement. Us humans tend to always judge others, especially groups of people that we don't understand fully. But in truth only God is the true judge, and the stereotypes that we form can be totally untrue or mere generalizations based on our own biases and negative emotions. That is the flaw of human judgement.

Well this I can say, that I'm still working on it, if I see someone rushing to catch the mrt, cutting the queue of others in front of him/her, I'd immediately label the person as an inconsiderate prick. But at the same time, I'll not shy away from those of different nationalities, personalities and upbringing, and consider everyone my friends, because they are just like me in essence: a person in need of God's grace. That is the commitment and choice that I've made: to call all people brothers and sisters.

Politics

2011-04-29T12:04:00.003+08:00

I was quite neutral when it comes to politics, but as I continue to hear opinions from both sides... I'm beginning to hate it. All I see is a polarization of views over "imagined" differences, and a pointless debating using flawed or incomplete arguments. What's even worse, a forceful attempt by many people to impose values on others, especially from the proponents of the opposition.

When you take a pill, its supposed to help you isn't it? Sometimes yes, there are side effects, sometimes it takes longer to achieve its effect, sometimes the process is painful and the pill is bitter. If you don't like it, just switch to the next one quietly. If some people don't mind all of the above, who are you to force another pill down their throats?

On the other hand, its pure nonsense to say that since I've never taken this pill before, I shouldn't take it, because I may die from it. A ludicrous statement for sure.

Lots of the debates we hear today are based on "imagined differences". All politicians want the same thing, a good, beautiful, prosperous country (I'm giving them the benefit of the doubt), yet people are polarized over who to choose and adopt an overly extreme view. But in essence, aren't all of them the same, no matter what party? Isn't their love for Singapore the most important? To me, as long as its fine, go for it, don't let others control your thoughts.

And, where's God in all this? Sometimes I'm frustrated by Christian friends with regard to politics... Not to say that their views are incorrect or their arguments are not sound; but some of these views arrive because of warped world values: a sense of not being content, or perhaps the thrill of going against the status quo, or perhaps the need to have a voice. Values that as a Christian, you should have chosen to forgo in favour of God.

However, if you can really say that God is foremost in your mind in all this, good for you. And I have a deep respect for you, because I can say I've lost Him somewhere in all this talk about politics. And thats why I don't like to think too much about it. But if not... Reflect about it will ya.

Assessment

2011-04-26T15:13:00.003+08:00

2 papers done, 2 papers left!

The past 2 papers were pretty alright... Bio psych was easier than expected, and Jap Studies was tougher than expected, but no worries I believe the results will be fine. =) All thats left is cognitive psych, which will most probably tire my hand out, and japanese, which should be alright.

Getting less and less busy, and very likely have a long 2 plus months of break before the next semester. So what I'll be up to includes lots of exercise to ready myself for IPPT and lots of anime watching of course. =D

For the next few days got my schedule all nice and sorted out... A very very good thing. But once I've completed everything on my to do list for the day I've got nothing else to do besides facebook surfing, watching tv and visiting failbook/blog. Ah wells I'll take it, cos once the next semester comes I'll be studying again.

One last thing: 21 posts to 600! Can't wait. =D

To You Alone

2011-04-24T07:03:00.002+08:00

Every knee will bow
And every tongue confess
That Jesus Christ is Lord
Lord and King

Chorus:
All glory to Your name
All honour to Your Majesty
Forever, forever
All praise to You alone

Verse 2:

Every eye will see
And every heart will know
The beauty of the Lord
In all the earth

End Chorus:

All praise to You alone
All praise to You alone
All praise to You alone

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Well what else can say?

You Are Stronger

2011-04-20T09:32:00.004+08:00

As Good Friday draws closer, can't help but reflect on the meaning of death and how much Jesus means to me. It seems that lots of things around are just reminding me of how a simple death is much more complicated than one can ever imagine.

The play that PLMGSS's drama club put up was centered around the themes of death and dealing with it, themes that are so deep yet meaningful. Death can be internal, not only external. Death is sometimes not a choice, so to live should mean a lot to you. And lastly, death can be a form of release and freedom. Those were the overarching themes that were shown during the play. Well all these are true for us humans, but when Jesus died on the cross... Its just a whole lot more meaningful than that don't you think?

Regina's dad's wake reminded me of something else. How the passing of someone close can hurt so much, because we have loved him/her deeply... And as we remember Jesus's death, do we feel the same way? I hope we do, and even more than that. I can say I do. As I was preparing for YE worship on saturday tears couldn't help but well up in my eyes. I was mourning inside. But as I continued preparing I was reminded of Christ's victory, and oh how much I give thanks for that. Mourning turned to praise, and a deeper welling up of love within my heart that I want to share with others.

After these many years of commemorating Good Friday and Easter, I've never seen the events of this period of time with so much clarity before. And its thanks to everything that has been happening over this week. Well, everything happens for a reason, for God's glory.

Concert

2011-04-17T19:33:00.002+08:00

Its been ages since I've gone to a school related performance... My last was about 2 or 3 years ago I believe. And I must say I miss those times when I was performing. Really want to find a good Christian band to join and play songs (hopefully Christian and Jap ones) with at a leisurely pace, and eventually be able to perform in front of a crowd again...

Vanessa's concert was pretty amazing. I must say that although my school used to play some pretty brilliant music, nothing beats musical groups with a strong heart of service for God, and in that light it was inspiring... If only in the past it could've been that way for me. My spiritual growth would definitely have progressed in a much stronger way I believe. In a way its this environment that gives me no doubt that she's in good hands in her school, and because of that I'm quite pleased.

Besides that really appreciated some of the performers for their expertise. The bass harpist was so good. Every single note she played was perfect rhythmically. The English play was absolutely brilliant in my opinion, had a depth and meaning that I didn't believe secondary schoolers could bring out so magnificently. Such a pity they only got a silver. And finally the guzheng tuan... Very synchronized... And could really tell they enjoyed themselves thoroughly, especially during the last song.

But the thing that made it the best for me: God's presence being manifested so strongly. So this is what being in a Christian school is like. Simply amazing.

That being said I miss Eden-Sol. =(

Well schools out! Have already been studying, so now time to start on exercising as well. =D Study week here I come!

End

2011-04-15T13:11:00.001+08:00

Much to thank God for... The end of the semester has arrived. =D

Saiyuki

2011-04-09T10:21:00.003+08:00

And so things are tuning down... The ironic thing about it is that the thing I fear about the upcoming week is being too free in between lessons with nothing to do at all. Its the truth, with almost all things settled all I've left to do is my MIDI composition, posting on the forum and studying for the finals. Hasn't been an easy semester, but I'm glad I've made it this far.

Over the past few weeks have been sort of rushing around on weekends because Darren has to go to BMT. Can't say I like the rushing, but family's important for me so no complaints. The good thing about it is that we always go to good places to eat. Yesterday went to Ming Jiang at Rochester, last week to Crystal Jade.

This week was easy to say the least... The only tough part about it was finishing my portion of the japanese studies paper which is due next week. But since its group work, all the more better to enjoy the process.

Managed to bump into many friends throughout the week. Sec school ones like Dali, Guitar ones like Sherine and QQ, church ones like Li En, Jap class friends like Rui Xiong and Eddie and lots of my Nav friends! Made new friends in classes as well. =) The highlight of the week has to be meeting Sherman for lunch on Tuesday, and him passing me a nice Chopin compilation disc set with 50 songs! I like. Noose was really entertaining this week as well.

So I'm now watching Saiyuki, which I haven't come around to do since I was young although I've always wanted to. Somehow I always miss the first ep and end up not watching the rest. Its a spin on the chinese classic Journey to the West.

Not too impressive a pic but I guess it'll do. As you can see two characters out of the 4 should be recognized quite easily... But the other 2? And where's the fat pig monster, and bearded water demon that used to be part of the original Journey to the West? I'll leave you to watch and figure out yourself. =)

Antagonists

2011-04-03T23:05:00.003+08:00

Well... In anime usually 2 kinds of antagonists exist. The ones that are pure, deadly evil, and the second kind are the ones that were super good, pure and just initially but turned bad because of some unfortunate turn of events.

One of the villains that I find most interesting is a man named Sensui from the anime Yu Yu Hakusho. He was initially something like the guardian of the human world, making sure that demons would not terrorize humans. From young he had the sense of justice to enforce his ideals, and never did he back down, because he knew what harm demons could do to humans.

One unfortunate day, on a mission to protect some of the richest magnates in society, he chanced upon a horrible truth. In a room in one of the mansions, he found a room full of brutality. Demons of all kinds were being tortured in excrutiating ways, unable to die but crying out for death to befall them. The magnates, with all their money, had paid to enjoy the torture of their enemies, the demons. The horrific scene triggered a thought in him... What if he was wrong all the while? What if all along humans were the true source of evil, misery and suffering?

Unable to rationalize what he had seen, he locked himself in a library which contained many supernatural artifacts, and he seeked answers amongst these artifacts. He found a tape, called the black tape. A simple name, but within the video contained scenes of the atrocity of mankind, the wars, raping, tortures, death, destruction and evil of all sorts. From then on he was convinced that all humans too deserved to be reduced to nothingness.

Sometimes, I too feel that way. I ask myself, despite the sin of the world, why do I try my best to be nice to everyone? Why do they deserve my kindness and respect? Why do I even bother? When in turn I recieve nothing but hurt, what makes me not stray from my ethos?

And the reason is simple. Because Jesus first loved me unconditionally, even though I too am not perfect and do not deserve anything. 1 John 4:19 says: "We love, because He first loved us."

And so, though sometimes I feel that I'm on the brink of turning into such an antagonist, I will choose to continue to love as well, and demand nothing else from others.

Perhaps soon I can write anime based QT material, don't you think? I'm sure Christians who are anime buffs will love it haha.

Cheers! =)

April

2011-04-01T15:19:00.002+08:00

Well its April Fools... Haven't got pranked as of yet. But can't seem to load any videos from youtube... Could it be a prank by the people who manage the website? =O

Oh wells I'm pretty glad the past few days are over and done with, and a couple of things were finally finished. For example reading of text for lectures, doing of jap homework, bio psych presentations and cognitive psych test. A couple more things to do, such as the final Jap Studies project, final science in music test and MIDI writing, but have ample time to do it.

This semester has been poor spiritually... Always taking things into my own hands and seemingly not being able to give God the glory He deserves. Oh well I'll have a better semester next time round, I believe. =) Comparing it to the previous semester, I handled the previous one a lot better, and didn't let circumstances overwhelm me. Where did the focus go? Gotta regain what I had just half a year ago: a fervent trust in His hand in my life.

And so April's here! It'll be rather busy for most of us, so keep working at it! And all the best to everyone.

Not Alone

2011-03-27T11:30:00.002+08:00

After all the cog psych mugging, bio psych presentation preparations... Surprisingly still am a week ahead of preparations for my school work... Really cannot believe how everything just fell into place. With a great group mate for the presentation, with a sudden relief of stress with just entrusting the cognitive psych test into God's hands, and timely reminders not to rely on self but on God. Everything just went right despite of my own pride and sinfulness.

In mid week and till just yesterday... Felt drained as a result of studying and feeling not being able to absorb much of anything. But no worries, its been resolved. Because I know that I've put in my best effort, and God can do amazing things when you trust Him for providence.

Also feel that in Gihon there's a strong and pure desire to find God amidst the chaos of the world. People are actively asking questions, helping each other with the problems in their lives, and showing each other what true Christian living is about: not acting superior, but still discovering and understanding God for themselves in their own special ways. And finally the cell journal's back in my hands haha! After a year. =) Well, shall enforce it better this year. =)

3 weeks to exams and no more lessons! Can't wait! Haha.

Well, the week ahead will be pretty tough (more specifically tuesday evening till thursday morning), but I'm ready! Because I'm not alone.

Blow Wind Blow

2011-03-21T21:37:00.004+08:00

Feeling a bit under the weather, but thank God for a strong immune system. The runny nose started just yesterday... But besides that no fever and cough unlike my bro. So in today's lessons, pretty much had to disrupt class by blowing my nose a couple of times.

I think I'll be alright. =D

Today's jap tutorial we played blow wind blow, jap style. Which shows how adept my command of Japanese is now. The tutorial was a blast, and we were all scampering around like little school kids haha. "Megane o kaketeiru hito!" and I'd have to go running to get a spot to sit haha. I'm really glad I've come this far in learning a third language, and I guess after this I should work on my fourth (sign language), which I've neglected since I've begun uni.

Lastly, have started on Kimi Ni Todoke... After the first episode I can tell that this specific anime will mean a lot to me. In the main character I already see myself in the past, in all my timidness and being left out. The journey to the opening up of her world is like my own... So really looking forward to watching more of it!

Besides that, watching GTO, another legendary anime that an anime buff simply can't miss. About an ex-gangster whose dream is to become Japan's best teacher, and his unorthodox ways of dealing with the students. The laughs are certainly great, but the main gist of it is living by the values that you've set up for yourself and never compromising on them. Which makes this another great anime to catch.

And so, I've also completed my cog psych paper and concert review. Only 2 submissions and 2 tests left. So on we go... 4 weeks to exams!

Utter Respect

2011-03-17T10:17:00.004+08:00

Utter respect. For the strength, integrity and resilience of the Japanese people even in the midst of all the happenings. For manga and anime followers like me it was expected for all of it to be put on halt... But the fact that manga and anime continue to be churned out by the hardworking authors, animators and publishers are a true testament to the resilience of the Japanese. I'll never look at them in the same light again.

Went for my Japanese Studies lecture and heard about the family situation of the lecturer's family, with some of his wife's relatives still missing, and others safe and sound. Could really hear the pain in his voice. And in some of my friends too. I may not understand the situation full well, but my support and prayers are with all of them, its the least I could do for such a great people.

On personal matters... Cognitive Psych paper is going well, just one para left and biblio to do. Just concerned that there's not enough content to explain the concepts effectively. A two page paper is really not enough to treat the topic in a proper light. However, all I can do is trust.

Speaking of trust, today was really expecting a very very tough day, but in my prayers just committed everything to God, and I suppose letting go really helps you enjoy the little blessings... My bio psych tut classmates giving out sweets (which I really needed for keeping awake) for answering questions to name an example. Really thankful for that.

Oh well this day will be long but I'll be alright. Later. =D

Jishin

2011-03-12T20:53:00.002+08:00

One of the little things I've learnt on the way is to just thank God for every single part of my life... Thinking about the situation in Tokyo and about the people. Japan is my favourite country after all. What a difficult time it must be. I think it'll be a nice thing to ask my japanese tutors about their families and assure them in this time of need.

The Japanese equivalent of the word earthquake can be romanized as Jishin... Which when translated can also mean self confidence. Well its random... But its something that I've been thinking about lately, especially since the time I did the bio psych presentation. Sometimes I lack it, even when I know that God made me in a marvelous way. Just like what Pastor William said... I might've been ashamed of the gospel by refusing to acknowledge my own immense capacity, which led to my lack of self confidence in presentations. Something to reflect about today.

Besides that... The semester feels like its ending soon with all the submissions rushing in. No probs I can handle it. But can't wait till the hols! Gotta prep for IPPT soon.

Zeitgeber

2011-03-08T12:04:00.002+08:00

Well I'm now in Bio Psychology lecture learning about wakefulness and sleep. Quite an apt topic for the moment, if you know what I mean. Also got back the scores for the bio psych test: 41/50, which is really good! Thank God for that.

For this week its considerably relaxed... All the things to settle are almost done, for example worship for saturday, the tutorial preparations for this week and things like that... Increasingly having nothing to do at nights during weekdays in terms of uni and church stuff... Which means a lot of time for leisure! And also I can start gearing up in terms of submissions due soon.

Went for a concert with Sherine by Albert Tiu, a well known Singaporean pianist. The title of the concert was Chopin without Chopin, which consists of songs based on variation of music composed by Chopin. Thoroughly enjoyable, with imba playing in a truly professional style. The mental images conjured in my head whilst the songs were playing were really phenomenal. And now I can do my concert review! =D

Want to go for more concerts in school in future, especially cos its free! And I really really enjoy it very much. Each song is like a journey in a world outside the drab reality of life, which is really quite amazing. (Not that I don't enjoy my life as it is haha, but its a special experience)

Ok lecture is starting for real! Later.

Mid Sem

2011-03-03T21:20:00.002+08:00

It was a pretty tough day, just thanking God that the presentation is over and done with... Looking back it wasn't so wise to worry that much about it, cos it was rather informal and done in a rather relaxed environment. So for next month's presentation just gotta tone down and relax when it comes to the time. One thing I wish I could've done better was to rely on God for peace, and not take so many things into my own hands. But He's brought me through.

And so the Romans training has ended, all in good time for the rest of the semester. Next week it seems like my schedule will be more free, which is a good thing! Now Wednesdays after 4pm I'll be free! And there's no lecture from 4-6 on monday so another good thing out of next week.

Just one more jap test tomorrow and mid terms will be done with. After that have 4 more submissions and 2 more tests to go for the rest of the semester! And 4 more final exams of course. Next 2 submissions: Cognitive Psych Term Paper, Concert Review by 23rd and 26th March respectively. No probs I'm on top of it. =D

Darui

2011-02-26T20:50:00.003+08:00

And so mid term break's almost finished with. Managed to most of the stuff I had to, and now left with studying for my Japanese test. Next weeks gonna be a pretty tough one, with 2 tests and a presentation - my first of my uni life. Still have minor things to settle for the bio presentation, like printing handouts, the article and my script, not to mention saving it in a safe place so that I don't lose it on the day of the presentation.

Today's Music Ministry Open House was enjoyable, managed to teach some people more about the bass, though there were no new sign ups. Besides that it was really encouraging to see the younger ones be able to play and glorify God with their talents. Perhaps some time ago I too encouraged the older people with my talents, and that is a precious thing to keep in mind.

Might forget to submit my jap holiday homework so better put something here to remind me. Need to staple it nicely as well or my tutor will reprimand me haha.

Nothing much else to blog for now, life's just going on I guess. A little drearily I might add, but its all part of life isn't it. =D

Break

2011-02-20T20:42:00.002+08:00

And so mid term break is here! Couple of stuff to settle for this week though, but in the middle will definitely enjoy myself. Resonance of Fate here I come! =D

1. 26th Feb Music Network Logs
2. Church Carnival Gihon Stall ideas
3. Bio pres
4. Jap holiday homework
5. Studying for Science of Music and Jap tests

Here we go!

Yuujou

2011-02-14T18:52:00.003+08:00

The best reminder of how friendship has made you the way you are is when you see both one of your oldest friends (Zhuo Jing), and one of your newest (Kah Kay) on the same day by chance. It was just such a wonderful feeling of happiness though the meetings were short. But God definitely brought them both to me for a reason, to encourage me and strengthen me for the week ahead.

School was more crowded and noisier than usual, since it was Valentines Day... Tried my best to avoid the throngs of people... Got blocked a couple of times, which got me mildly irritated but not too irked, so it was alright. Could see the excitement on some of their faces, the expectation of something special. Well as for me, it was just another simple day with simple pleasure. =D If there's one thing I've learnt throughout my life it's to give thanks for my friends every single day of my life, not just on one special day. Much more meaningful, don't you think?

And here comes the last week of the first half of the semester, after this week there'll be a break! Unlike the previous semester where I had 5 mid-term exams, I now have only 2 to study for during the break: Science of Music and Japanese. Time to wind down and relax a little.

Bought Resonance of Fate for the PS3, something which Darren has always wanted. Gonna try it soon. Probably haha. Its another RPG, and the graphics look stunning, almost comparable to FF13. Here's a pic.

Looks pretty exciting. Looking forward to the end of the week when I have more time. =D

Carmen Sandiego

2011-02-10T14:28:00.002+08:00

Skipped one of my tutorials for the first time in my uni life... It was accidental in a way. After my Japanese Studies lecture I was really really tired. Went to the library to sleep... Used the netbook for awhile, then drifted into sleep. By the time I woke up the tutorial timing was over. Oh wells no harm done, there's no marks allocation for the cog psych tutorial, and I guess it was my body's way of telling me that I really really need rest.

Have started playing Carmen Sandiego on facebook since it came on yesterday. Its pretty addictive in a way haha. After all those years of playing it only as a computer game, seeing gameshow series about it on tv and all, having it as a fb game feels great.

Besides that started on Yu Yu Hakusho, another famous earlier era anime... One of the forefathers of action anime.

All right I think I shall go get some more rest.

Resolute

2011-02-04T09:54:00.003+08:00

I guess God's helping me with one of my resolutions in His own way... Sending me many trials that I fail to complete or bring out the worst in me, so that I'll slowly learn to go easy on myself, even when I fail. Good thing most of the consequences are of no significance. I'm gradually learning, so that's good. =D

Happy CNY everyone! Don't let the snacks give you sore throats and drink more water alright. Haha.

Ephemeral

2011-01-31T19:07:00.003+08:00

Well I'm sifting through our old collection of PS1 games, remnants of the past... Certain ones that we found too easy, some we couldn't complete, and others we found utterly boring. Those were good whilst they were usable and entertaining, but now its goodbye. Unfortunately everything is ephemeral but God, but well that's life.

Just came back from driving my parents to the doctor. My dad's down with a pretty bad cough by the sounds of it... And my mom's got high BP and headaches to boot. Its gonna be a tough chinese new year for our family in some ways I suppose. And perhaps I'm next in line to get sick? =S

On Sunday was the 4th time in 5 weeks I played for main. But of course it was enjoyable once again. I do need a break from it however... Shall refuse the next week if it comes around.

Lastly, steamboat with Gihon was thoroughly enjoyable... Can't wait till March when cell begins! =D I'm really glad that they helped out with cleaning up, washing the dishes, emptying the rubbish and things like that. Couldn't have handled it all on my own. And the atmosphere was a simple and relaxed one, which I found especially comforting.

Just tuesday left to get through before a really nice long break! Just hope I don't get too worn out from visitations. Till the next post!

Navigators

2011-01-27T14:13:00.003+08:00

Well, finally have gotten to meet or talk to all my old psych friends that took PL1101E and PL2131... Turns out that absolutely none of them are majoring in psych in the end out of the 4 I've gotten to know rather well. How sad. Oh wells we'll still keep in contact... Due to today's tutorials I've found a couple more psych friends, and for that I give thanks.

Have been hanging around the NUS Year 1 Navigators, joined their group discussion on tuesday before my jap lecture. Really enjoyed myself... The people there are really sincere, committed to being a good Christian, and strong in the word. Really like it there so I'll probably join them on alternate weeks.

Well, at this stage, I'm about a week or 5 working days ahead of my uni schedule in readings, tutorial preparations and such. And because of CNY, I believe the gap will only increase, leaving me with a good buffer that will last pretty long. Thank God that my J trait is really really strong.

After watching Noein... I've come to realise how blessed I am. If back then, something had been slightly different... I wouldn't even be who I am today. Even more than that, I may not have even been a real Christian. And beyond that, perhaps I wouldn't even have existed. And for this reason I should live my life to the fullest, cos its God given. I am who I am today because every single second, minute and hour that has preceded this moment was the way it was.

Next anime: Rental Magica. The part of me curious about all sorts of mythology is cheering. =D

Noein

2011-01-23T21:31:00.003+08:00

An update on the week that has just passed... It was tiring of course, but a lot more bearable than the previous week. No really definitive moments after my tuesday post... But I'm getting used to all the lecturers and their styles.

A couple of simple things that happened along the way:
1. Wednesday: Went for Roman's teaching chapter 4-5.
2. Thursday: Went for YE Meeting
3. Friday: Lead in SYC for the topic on Passion
4. Saturday: After YE went to my cousin's new house, The Pinnacle @ Duxton
5. Sunday: Played for main

Out of these few I'll highlight the last 3. The teaching on passion was exceptionally beneficial for me, definitely facilitating the discussion on certain topics you learn the most about it. I suppose I'm not a very passionate person, but after thinking about it I shall try to be as passionate as I can be for everything that I do, even though I don't outwardly show it. Its only fitting as a way to show my love for God for everything He's placed in my life, even the seemingly mundane. And I believe having passion will be part of the solution for me being too hard on myself... Only time will tell whether it'll work out.

As for points 4 and 5... I'm really enjoying myself playing in main. Today as I played the songs for the kids - Jesus you are so good and I love you Jesus, I really expressed these things without inhibition as I played, which was a really special experience for me. Visiting my cousins house was another great experience, with gardens on the 25th and 50th floors, even though its a hdb flat. I would've been able to spend hours in the gardens just looking at the view and enjoying the feel of the breeze. Wanna go back there to visit them again one day.

Finally, I'm now watching an anime called Noein. Very very interesting, and its of the sci-fi genre. Basically in the anime many alternate dimensions exist, and in one of them people are forced to live underground as unknown dimensional monsters begin attacking that world. The people of that world are forced to look in different dimensions for something called the Dragon's Torque, something that can detect and alter dimensions to save themselves. They chance upon in a dimension set 15 years in the past, and some people are sent to retrieve it... The people from the future meet themselves from the past... And the rest you've gotta watch for yourself.

Makes me wanna meet myself from 15 years in the future, or perhaps 15 years in the past. An interesting concept, don't you think. Maybe I'll be able to? When I'm 15 years older and read this blog once over.

Drawing Strength

2011-01-18T15:46:00.002+08:00

And so I'm more or less recovered. I suppose solitude really is essential for healing in my case. I'm ready to face the challenges coming!

Well, today has been a real surprise, with me meeting people I know all over. First was Jamie from my psych class last sem, offered to give her my old jap textbooks. Then next was Sam, who I haven't met for awhile. If you guys remember he's my sec3-4 then JC class friend who I play Yugioh cards with and did a gamebook writing project with in RI. Next was Jon Li! That was a nice surprise, meeting him in school. Finally QQ! Who walked past me without seeing me haha. If you guys don't remember her she's my Guitar Ensemble friend!

Like the previous semester, meeting all these friends are a reminder of how far I've come. And that I'll keep on progressing. Despite my mistakes for sure I'll improve, and come out a better person. So the events of today so far have erased my the guilt of Sunday.

And so now I'm waiting for my jap lecture once again. Oh another friend's here. Another Jon, who's my jap lecture friend. We'll sit out the remaining 2 hours together. =D

Shizuka

2011-01-17T00:40:00.004+08:00

Saturday... I was really happy with the group of people I had dinner with. The periodic silence was really comforting. Looking forward to being with that group more often. Such an interesting composition of people.

Pastor William was really good at the YE session. Very clear, memorable. I must say I was pleasantly surprised. Definitely caught something there which I'll remember in times to come. Today's sermon was good as well. Definitely learning stuff at all the sessions I'm going to, which is a delight. Looking forward to meeting my cell once again at discussions at YE.

Nothing else I should blog about. Some things are better left unsaid.

Brink

2011-01-13T14:42:00.002+08:00

Yesterday was an insanely tough day... Never has a day driven me so much to the brink of exhaustion. It was a combination of really unfortunate circumstances that led to it, rarely do so many minor sources of tiredness all come in a row like yesterday.

First was the issue of tiredness from previous days. Still hadn't recovered from saturday's last minute worship session preparations, sunday's playing for worship, monday's worship prac, tuesday's lecture and to add to all the lack of emotional/mental rest was the serve inauguration, which was a source of problems that I'll talk about later.

Second was the huge amount of money I'd spent on uni books. Almost 180 dollars in total. Really not accustomed to spending so much in one shot. Its almost against my values to have spent that much. Almost made me wonder how I got over it in the first semester. It made the weariness a lot worse, because I'm a value oriented person. Just infringing one of them makes me feel weaker in a way.

Third was that I really really wanted to be down for the Romans teaching at SAC. It felt like I was forsaking the power of God's word for the sake of service and fellowship, which was another value smashed into smithereens on that day.

Fourth came the shock of SERVE inauguration. Suddenly finding out about a change in musicians, and the quality of the keyboard I was using, I was caught totally off guard, something once again against my value of excellence. The worship went well, despite the drain that came with it, and a bonus was that I was able to meet my SERVE friends again. Despite all that there was no avoiding the emotional and mental drain that came with that experience. It was now 3 values in a row that I had failed to uphold.

Fifth my ipod earphones decided to go haywire on me during the trip back. Usually I'd be uncomfortable in the proximity of strangers due to my strong introversion... So how I overcome it usually is to go into my own world of music with my ipod, otherwise it would be even more draining. And so I couldn't for that journey. On the way back the guy sitting on my left felt just like a dementor (from the Harry Potter series) draining my energy though he was just sitting there reading his book. Couldn't help it, cos I was already feeling tired and had to sit down. How unfortunate.

Sixth was that the only way to get away from all that emotional and mental tiredness was to text Vanessa because she'd understand which would make me feel better... But in the middle the reception got cut off and my messages weren't getting sent. At that point it felt like I was alone in the depths of the world of the undead or something to that effect. For a rare moment in my life I felt like I was on the brink.

Oh wells thank God I finally got home and got to lie down on my bed whilst using my netbook. Its days like this that remind you even in the busyness and even in the worst days there is a source of refuge like no other. In my QT the author talked about a glimpse of God, and yesterday I got to catch a glimpse of Him that I'd never got before. A God who heals all fatigue and carries me on his back when I'm at my most broken and weakest. Something that I can only truly experience when I'm on the brink. (which is rare)

So despite it being a bad day yesterday, I cherish it for its another special experience with God.

Waiting For Lecture...

2011-01-11T14:47:00.003+08:00

So the new school semester has opened... On a tiring note. 4 consecutive days of not being able to be at home for dinner is pretty sad. With evenings packed its gonna be pretty tough for the next week or so. Pretty soon perhaps my only free evening will be mondays, and that means no chance to join clubs again. Oh wells.

So far lectures have been fine... I've only been to 2, and everything's been basic. Now waiting for my jap one, which will definitely be the most intense of the bunch. But also the one I'm looking forward to, because of the friends I'll be taking it with.

So monday evening was prac for SERVE, today's evening lecture, tomorrow will be SERVE inauguration, thursday's worship leader training, friday is SYC, saturday is YE and Sunday service. The next time I'll get rest in the evening will be on saturday, sunday or monday. Though there are no lessons on friday itself too. I'm getting too old for a schedule like this hahaa. At least there are rest days...

New Sem

2011-01-07T18:38:00.002+08:00

And so bidding is finished, and I've got all the modules I want! Here's a brief description of each.

1. PL 3232 - Biological Psychology

This is the bio part of psych (duh), focusing on how brain and body function determines a person's thoughts and behaviours. I'm quite looking forward to this, cos it's a merger of 2 of my favourite topics of study... How does the structure and functions of my brain make me different from anyone else in the world?

2. PL3233 - Cognitive Psychology

How do people think logically? What are their thought processes? How does the brain understand stimuli like light waves, sound and touch? These are the questions to find answers to here in this module.

3. JS1101E - Intro to Japanese Studies

Here's another one I'm looking forward to... It'll make my trips to the land of the rising sun a lot more meaningful than they have already been. Wonder what exactly they'll cover in the lectures. Exciting!

4. LAJ 2201 - Japanese 2

Finally gonna learn how to speak non formally... Enjoyed jap 1 thoroughly and scored well, so I figured I'd do Jap 2 as well! With my passion it should go great! Need to find old lecture and tutorial friends though!

5. GEK 1519 - Science of Music

This is a combi of music theory and physics... Which is pretty cool! After all the long years of doing piano, guitar, bass I'm finally studying in depth about it. It will be useful in YE or main's context I believe, to improve some of the facilities and equipment and such. Some more this module is non examinable! Bonus bonus!

This sem looks slightly less intense than the previous... So looking forward to it!

First Week

2011-01-05T11:22:00.002+08:00

And so this first week of 2011 has been moderately busy, with activities almost everyday to occupy myself with.

On saturday, went down to my maternal side cousin's house all the way in Bedok, to see my niece who's 1 year old. Her name's Riona, and I was pretty touched at the effort my cousin and her husband put in to create wonderful memories for her to look back upon. Had to drive back, which I quite enjoyed, but it was slightly stressful because of the distance.

Sunday, playing for main. I enjoyed it thoroughly. Somehow I feel I was made to play in bands like that, with high technical ability. I was in the groove so to speak, I could feel the presence of the Holy Spirit, and I was moving along with the rhythm and meditating on the words of the songs. Playing with adults just seems different, and its something I've come to enjoy. No stress at all even!

Monday, grocery shopping. Drove to Bukit Timah Shopping Centre. Rest of the day was uneventful... It was sort of my "day of rest" before the busyness set in.

Tuesday. Worship Leaders meeting. Juan wasn't there, so helped her present the budget and take down a list of things to do. My first source of stress for the week. I was totally unprepared for it... =.= In the midst of it I almost scared myself to death, suddenly realizing that SERVE inauguration clashed with my japanese lecture if it were on tuesday. But messaging Edgal and Shengwei calmed it down, for it had been shifted a day later, and I was already prepared for it to clash with my Romans training before hand. Phew. That was quite a shock.

With a tough round of bidding to top that, it was tough to stay happy. Though I wasn't unhappy either, just not in that optimistic state I usually always am in. Yesterday was one demanding day, but at the same time it was alright.

So some things remaining for the week: Romans training today, SYC chalet on thursday, SYC on friday, Leaders training and YE on saturday, and service on sunday. Thats a lot whoa.

Finally, leisure. Have started on Last Rebellion on PS3, which is quite like my kind of game. An RPG in which you actually have to think more. Quite like mastermind in the gameplay. For anime I've moved on to Samurai 7. And I've finally made progress on Chopin's Grande Valse Brilliante op 18 after leaving it stagnant for some time.

School in 5 days... It's alright. For now haha.

Anime List - Complete As Of 1/1/11

2011-01-03T12:58:00.003+08:00

Its been some time since I've posted this... So here goes.

Ah My Goddess + Fighting Wings + Flights Of Fancy
Akazukin Cha Cha
Angel Sanctuary
Angelic Layer
Avatar
Ayashi No Ceres
Basilisk
Beck
Bleach (still ongoing)
Blood+
Bokusatsu Tenshi
Boys Be
Chobits
Chrono Crusade
Clannad + After Story
Cooking Master Boy
Cowboy Bebop
Curious Play
D Gray Man
Devil May Cry
Digimon Adventure 1 + 2 + Tamers
Dragon Ball + Z + GT + Kai
Elfen Lied
Fairy Tail (Still ongoing)
Flame of Recca
Fruits Basket
Full Metal Alchemist + Brotherhood
Full Metal Panic + Fumoffu + Second Raid
Gatekeepers + 21
Getbackers
Ghost Hound
Gintama
Girls Bravo
Grander Musashi
Gravitation
Gunslinger Girl + Il Teatrino
Hellsing (haven't watched the new one though)
History's Strongest Disciple Kenichi
I My Me Strawberry Eggs
Inukami!
K-On + Second Season
Kaleido Star
Karas
The Legend of Condor Heroes
Lucky Star
Maburaho
Magikano
Mahou Sensei Negima + Negima!?
My Hime
Mai Otome + Zwei
NANA
Naruto + Shippuuden (still ongoing, yes and I watched all those irritating fillers)
Neon Genesis Evangelion + Death + Rebirth + You Are (Not) Alone
Ninku
Muteki Kanban Musume
Now and Then, Here and There
One Piece (still ongoing)
Ouran High School Host Club
Powerstone
Prince Of Tennis
Rave
Revolutionary Girl Utena
Rosario Vampire + Kappuchu
Rurouni Kenshin
Sailormoon + R + S + SuperS + Stars
Sakura Wars
Samurai Champloo
Scrapped Princess
Scryed
Shaman King
Shuffle! + Memories
Slayers + Next + Try + Revolution + Evolution-R
Steam Detectives
Tenjou Tenge + OVA
Tokyo Majin Gakuen Kenpucho Tou + Second Act
Tsubasa Chronicle
Trinity Blood
Vandread
You're Under Arrest
Yugioh + GX

Total: 80 and counting.

Ownership

2011-01-01T12:52:00.003+08:00

550th post!

Firstly, wishing everyone a happy new year... My countdown was alright I guess. Was at SYC party, and too many party games got me really tired and feeling a bit out of sorts. Effects of being a strong introvert. But I'm glad for the friendships I have there. Most recent new years I'd just stay at home for my own sake, cos I'd feel more empowered, but spending it with them was alright! =)

If 2009 for me was represented by the word "choice", the word representing 2010 would be "ownership", for its this year when I really found myself emotionally attached to the choices that I've made. In a sense, I've grown up from the times where all the decisions were either made for me, influenced by others, a natural progression or partially owned by others with the same ideals. It feels like I'm finally standing on my own feet. Taking responsibility of my own choices and moving with them faithfully with my own 2 hands.

Whilst at almost every leaders meeting, I've surprised myself by speaking up strongly about certain issues. Without real ownership I'd just be my laid back, accepting self. In a way ownership has helped me learn more about my own ethos: the principles I've chosen to live my life with, and also helped me feel strongly about things that I never thought I'd stand up for.

Becoming a CGL in YE was my first real choice ever, and joining SERVE was my second. My uni modules were my third. And I'm glad that within all that God was there for me, and He was in control. I've not yet come to regret any of these decisions, and will continue to work hard on them for the coming year.

But in the midst of all that I've discovered my inner demons... Loneliness and self reproach, the 2 things threatening to tear me from the inside out. It was in April that loneliness was at its worst, and when I cried out to God. SERVE was over, and it felt like no one truly understood who I was, not even my new friends. They appreciated my capabilities, my personality and my eccentricities, but there wasn't anyone who seemed to understand why I was this way. Until that time, I'd never found anyone who truly understood.

So I'm glad I got to know Vanessa better. She's the first person in my life who really understands. Thank you.

Before SERVE mission trip, and during church camp, self reproach strangled me, blaming me for my inadequacies, mistakes and poor self control. The word "Sinner" screamed at me at those moments. I felt weak and suffocated. Despite having pride in my sense of righteousness and honour, I was still... Not good enough. It just seemed like the better and stronger I got the more pain I took away from my mistakes.

I've made up my mind that 2011 shall be a year to deal with these demons, and I hope for success. Not to quell them, because they are a part of my very existence, but to live in peace with them.

Finally not forgetting my simple goals... Jap is well on its way. So only have to deal with sign lang (which I've neglected) and writing a good story (which I've kept on dropping halfway). Most importantly training my successor...

Here I come 2011. Nothing is impossible with God: Jeremiah 32:17.

Taiwan: Touch Your Heart

2010-12-30T12:35:00.005+08:00

Finally gone on a trip that I really paid attention to haha. Most other overseas trips were pretty much a blur, but because I took the effort to pay attention and get involved in it, it was a lot more rewarding than previous trips.

Unlike most other trips, this one was absolutely delicious every single day. Singaporeans I've asked have had mixed reactions to the food there... But my family's the more adventurous kind; as long as it looks good and smells good, eat it! Feels quite like a family motto haha. We enjoyed all the street food immensely, and didn't even end up with a single stomach ache. Thank God for strong stomachs.

The place I enjoyed the most was the Geopark at Yehliu... A must go for geog students for sure. All sorts of natural wonders. Spits, bars, tombolos, cliffs, evidence of weathering, rock formations - the best place for a geog geek to do a project, or photo buffs to take nice pictures of scenery. Here are some nice ones:

Besides the geopark, we went to the flower expo... Lots of nice pics that can be found on my fb page. Link:

http://www.facebook.com/album.php?aid=262291&id=564793122&l=8f398a2129

Besides that, lots of other hilarious moments. Daryl finding a new gang name for instance: Pak Fah Yeow, stepping over the line at the geopark and other antics, mostly involving my mom.

Other places of interest that we went to: Shilin Night Market, Liuhe Night Market, Jiufen, Taipei History Museum, Kaohsiung Central Park, Taipei 101, Love River. The aircon temperature made it a good trip, and it was totally worthwhile, though we missed a few things. Xi-men Ding, Chan Kai Shek's memorial, Sun Moon Lake to name a few. Maybe next time!

Oh yeah. Purchases from the trip... Souvenirs and gifts mostly. But for myself: A Model of Tony Tony Chopper from One Piece, a special coaster with a cute pic and the chinese word "Lazy" on it, a new pullover in RJ colours, new formal pants, a shirt and new shoes.

If you're interested in knowing more bout the trip, feel free to ask! =D

Chalet

2010-12-28T14:58:00.004+08:00

The YE chalet for me was a period of many firsts... First time staying over at a chalet for one. For me its never been comfortable living in cramped quarters surrounded by other people at close proximity. Sleepovers have always been out of the question... I suppose the situation surrounding the chalet was a little special.

Being the only other leader besides Paul and Aunty K was my motivation to be there. As a guardian or supervisor of sorts, to ensure the safety of everyone there (also another first). Things were made slightly more pressing due to Paul's illness, which made my presence rather more important.

Arrived early on the first day, with responsibility for guiding a large group of youth to a premise that I'd never even remotely seen or looked up about (again a first) suddenly thrust into my hands, as Paul would not be present as guide. I think I was rather successful despite getting a little lost at the end heh... Mildly irritated by the lack of preparation I was able to do on my part... Didn't like undertaking a task without figuring all the details prior, but oh wells.

As a result was rather drained when I reached the place; spent 2 hours or so asleep before joining the rest for setting up and fellowship and such.

The highlight for me would have to be the cute kittens/cats that roamed the area. 8 of them in all! They'd curl up asleep on your lap if you'd let them do so. Brings me back to the moments on guard duty, looking out for MS deep in the jungles... One night I woke up to take over the shift, surprised to find a cat curled up in between my legs. This time I had 7 sound asleep on my lap. Again it reminded me of God's presence surrounding me... Even in the stillness of the morning when most living things were barely awake; God's presence was still there, as strong as ever.

Cute right? =D =D

A last first came in the form of my first try of guitar hero... I played normal mode, and was pretty good, able to even hit 98% accuracy at times. =D Another reason to thank God for giving me a good rhythm hehe.

Besides that spent a lot of time just sitting around listening to the conversations of others, playing chess, mastermind and other board games courtesy of Paul. Another thing to thank God for: my good reasoning skills and sound logical thinking that helped me with the games. Slept at the dining table for the first night, and in the guitar hero room on the second night. Obviously those 2 locations were those devoid of other people, so I was pretty much comfortable.

The morning we had to go home, we finished clearing up pretty fast, which was really good! And finally we took a nice pic:

This experience was a rather important one for me... It helped me see many of my strengths, it showed me what I could achieve when responsibility was accorded to me, and most of all gave me time to spend with members of my wonderful youth group. I must say I enjoyed myself more than I thought I would. =D

MBS

2010-12-27T12:29:00.002+08:00

Alright its time to catch up with posting... But before that, NANA is finished, and I'm now moving on to History's Strongest Disciple Kenichi.

Time to talk about Marina Bay Sands. Some of you guys may have already been there, but for the benefit of those who haven't, here goes! Going to Marina Bay Sands was quite an excitement, because just a week before we went was the broadcast of the very last episode of the Amazing Race Asia, which featured Singapore as the final leg, and Marina Bay Sands as the last pit stop. That certainly piqued my interest, and going there was a gigantic eye opener.

In fact, once we entered the hotel, to our right stood the winners of the Amazing Race Asia with their ginormous cheque for the prize money: Richard and Richard, who were about to leave in a cab. At this moment I think Hannah would have started screaming like a zealous fan girl heh. Ethan from the Ethan and Khairie pairing was there too.

Besides that, the architecture is exceptionally stunning... Gigantic planters containing trees, the intricate spider web like sculpture above us, the extremely high ceiling giving us a look at all the guest rooms above. Whilst we were exploring the place Darren was going: "Next time when I own this place there'll be no China restaurants and my name will be carved on this and that and this." Even the Caution Wet Floor Sign was super atas, it wasn't made of plastic like other places, but instead of wood.

The lifts move insanely fast. So fast that my ears got blocked from the speed in the same way it would get blocked if you were in a plane. We must have shot up to our floor (60 something? Can't remember) in just mere seconds. The view from the room was amazing. We could see the whole Marina Bay area and all its buoys, the floating platform, the durians and the Singapore flyer. It was so beautiful. The room was the best I'd ever seen in my life. Clearly extravagant. The only drawback: no lock on the toilet door.

This whole experience was also the first time I'd come across a valet service... When leaving the hotel for dinner we got the valet to drive our car out of the carpark for us. Luxury! We then went to Lau Pa Sat for dinner and then returned to the hotel to view the night scenery on the roof.

Breathtaking. The only word that could possibly describe it. A live band on the roof, a beautiful view, and a great night breeze, what else could you ask for to have a relaxing evening? We stood at the exact spot that the final pit stop was on just for the feel of it. We moved on from the viewing platforms to the pool, which served as the area for the memory task for the race.

The pool just seemed to end over a cliff, which looked pretty dangerous, but was extremely unique. The way the water joined into the skyline was special, and made it such a tranquil place. If only there were less people there. >.< From nearby the smell of melted chocolate from the nearby chocolate bar (Really! There was a bar just for chocolate, no not that edible kind of bar silly), mixed with the smell of kerosene from a fire juggling performance filled our noses. The deck chairs were immersed in the pool, which was another amazing thing, so that swimmers could enjoy lazing around even in the water.

So that concluded our tour of MBS. It was certainly luxurious, but not the kind of lifestyle I'd like to lead. Experiencing it just once in a lifetime is fine with me. =)

Apologies for no pics... My phone takes extremely lousy quality ones. I promise there'll be some for the chalet and Taiwan posts! =D

Another Christmas

2010-12-25T11:22:00.003+08:00

Have a whole back log of posts (MBS, chalet, Taiwan), stuff to do for church, and Christmas presents to take care of... Apologies to some, your souvenirs/presents need some repacking. Coming back from hols is always no joke, especially when its this close to a major holiday.

For now, here are my grades:
Psych - B+
Stats - B
Jap - A
Social Work - A+
History - B

Cap: 4.20

Pretty alright! Quite satisfied. Next milestone: module bidding on 28th Dec.

Finally, a BLESSED CHRISTMAS to all! May we continue to remember Christ's coming into this world, for without it, we would still be condemned, and would not be able to gather like so in church today. Praise be to God for the sacrifice He has made for us.

2010-12-17T21:26:00.002+08:00

YE Chalet's over... More on that next time. Got a back log of 2 posts: MBS and Chalet, but I'll manage some how.

Got back, read the new chapters for Bleach, Naruto and One Piece, watched Naruto and then slept. For 8 hours. Woke up, went for dinner. Came back home... Packing's all done for now, so I'll just relax till midnight when survivor starts... Will go bed then, have to wake up at 6.

On to Taiwan!

Away

2010-12-15T10:23:00.001+08:00

Away for 3 days to YE chalet, then for another 7 days to Taiwan! See y'all soon.

Ethos

2010-12-14T12:58:00.003+08:00

In the past when I was younger I wrote a 5 part series to help me get to know myself better. After days of careful reflection and observation of how I was living my life, I wrote those posts. If you're interested they're in the archives, from feb 2005 onwards.

This today is the 6th part, something I could only have discovered after becoming more mature. My ethos: the guiding principles of how I've chosen to live my life, the things that influence my reactions, emotions and thoughts about others. Much like Naruto saying that never giving up is his way of the ninja if you get what I mean.

1. Everything I have is a bonus, the only thing I need is God.

It might be something every Christian talks about, but rarely do you see it truly translated into action, and even then, most Christians don't internalize this concept in their lives until it becomes truly natural. For me... This translates into the thankfulness that I feel no matter where I am and what I have, and also the laid back attitude I take towards possessions.

Paper seems like an ordinary commodity... But when I look at it I marvel at its usefulness and why God gave people the idea that this has been created. I appreciate the computer and its benefits, for with it I am able to experience God's grace. In the midst of the CBD, in a lan shop, at the beach, in my room, I can't help but be amazed every single day at God's gifts to all of us.

Money? Well it doesn't matter to me. Which restaurant would you like to eat at? Anything would be fine. What would you like as a Christmas present? Anything would be fine. These answers are natural because I believe anything that I have is a blessing.

2. Don't expect fairness, but be fair to everyone. Don't expect anything from others, but give everything you've got for their sake.

I'm not sure how and when this value became part of my life. But I suppose its because I know that I myself am a sinner, and so is everyone else on this planet. We are never perfect, and we let people down all the time. I've learned not to expect anything of others, because we are all imperfect.

Do I get disappointed? Not by others, because I know that everyone has their own problems. When people text me to apologize, the answer is always very natural, yet at the same time spoken from my heart. "It's alright, don't worry about it. =)" will be the reply for sure. More often than not I'm the one who disappoints myself, and it is something I am still working on: to be a little easier on myself.

People often complain about how things are never fair, my brothers do that all the time. But I've never come to expect it to be. Often times because I know people are never perfect, I strive to be the best I can be. For my friends, for my family and for God. If I'm treated unfairly, it never matters, as long as I treat others the best I can.

People see me as detached when it comes to relationships. This is because I don't expect anything from my friends, and I'm glad as long as they are happy. I've told SYC this before... But relationships to me have always been secondary. Its a bonus just to know that people love me for who I am.

3. Never give up, ever.

This is quite a recent addition to the way I live my life. It's a result of the failures that I've experienced. Singaporeans often complain that the youth of this day are not resilient enough. I'm trying my best to prove this wrong, but that in itself is not the reason I'm living my life in such a way.

The medicine rejection has played an enormous part in this. The pain of not being given a chance is immense. After that I see the opportunities I get with a whole new perspective. When you're given a place in the world somewhere, it always comes at the cost of someone else. My heart goes out to these people, who are left behind and have their hearts broken.

I strive for excellence and never give up on my endeavors not because it is to my benefit, but for the sake of those whose dreams and ambitions have been crushed and left by the wayside. Just giving up does not do these people any justice and will only hurt them. So it is for these people that I continue strong and never give in to the stress I feel when I've chosen a path to take. I will never give up.

The recently concluded episodes of Survivor and Amazing Race Asia really irked me. Whenever I see someone giving up, I see a weakness, and a lack of consideration for those who want to continue to play the game but never have a chance to do so. Life is a whole lot more important than that.

4. There is more to life than being an achiever.

Tournaments, competitions, the rat race, games... Anything that involves rankings I am a little uncomfortable with. That is because all I see is a clamoring for positions, something that will never matter once you are dead. From the start, a competitive spirit never existed in me. I play, not to win, but to enjoy the experience and learn from it. Winning is a bonus, but should never be the end result that you look for. That is what I truly believe.

I suppose that when I search for my job in the future, I will find something that I truly feel at peace with. It may pay less, I may be working under someone else, I may never be promoted, I may never be at the top of my field, and I may be one of the many people in a sea of mediocrity. But it will be more than enough for me. To be a light shining in whatever nook or cranny I find myself stuffed in.

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That's about it. Will add more if I discover them along the way. But these should be the most important guiding principles in my life right now. Cheers!

Worries

2010-12-13T11:47:00.002+08:00

After yesterday, listening to my cell members react to the change to Saturdays... Can't help but worry. If there's such dissent, did we as leaders hear God right?

Rationally, there were so many benefits: now we'll be able to have adult assistance, preachers will not have to rush for service and will be able to take the questions of the youth post session, the youth can contribute to main service, families can grow in Christ together when they go for service together, friends who come to YE can be followed-up on post YE, the time after YE can be used for fellowship without sacrificing going for service.

I was alright with the change... Even though on the DISC personality test I'm a high stability person who doesn't like change. An Sc Specialist pattern FYI.

This was because I believed all that was necessary for a youth would be a strong relationship with God, it didn't matter to me when YE was held as long as the love they have for God would never change. For my cell members, though I will do my utmost in advocating for them, I urge them to see the bigger picture. As long as you still love God, grow in Him and know Him more, the timing should be secondary.

However as I went through the feedback forms, my heart went out to those who cannot make it for YE next year. Would they still have this wonderful relationship without the support of their leaders and peers, if they are unable to come? Looking at my cell, I believe they're mature enough to overcome this and not neglect God in the process... But, I don't know the rest of the people well enough to make such a judgment. I hope they will not lose Him if they cannot come.

God help us in this transition, not to gain the hearts of the youth, but to link them to Yours, for that is the most important. And if it is Your will for this change not to occur, make it clear to us. But if it is Your will, may the transition be pleasant and filled with Your peace, for a divided church is a weakened one.

Ongaku

2010-12-12T00:23:00.003+08:00

Almost every single episode of K-On 2nd season and Nana are tugging at my heart strings... Just reminds me of the wonderful times I had with Eden-Sol/The Importance Of Being Idle and being in a band. How I miss those times performing in front of a live audience. My heart pounding in my chest, my hands playing across the vibrating strings of my bass, the smiles on my fellow performers faces, the rush of adrenaline just running through a well arranged cover and finally the roar of an appreciative crowd.

My heart yearns to perform on such a stage once again. The question is where to find like minded, Christ loving people who are willing to take it up... Perhaps I'm not meant to relive an experience such as this, maybe just not yet. I hope it does come again, and not be another of my dreams broken and left on the wayside.

K-On just reminds me so much of Gabriel, Guoren, Choon Wing and Sam... How everything felt so natural, so God-centered. Amidst the hard work, there were times with laughter, with sorrow, with joy and with pain. There were crises, there were advents, there were breakthroughs, there was a feeling of home that nothing else could trump. Such was the power of being in a Godly band like no other.

I miss it.

It meant so much to me.

Everytime I play Raindrops this is what I imagine. The sense of yearning, the intense glowing ember of a glorious era past, fading back into memory. It's my way of remembering this experience that I will keep for life.

More To Come

2010-12-10T00:32:00.005+08:00

Hi all... Have loads of things to post about, maybe 4 posts worth so I'll just take my time with all of that.

Shall start with all the random things that I've been up to this week. Don't mind me putting all of it in point form.

1. Music Theory

Have been teaching Sherman the essential portions of theory for the grade 5 level. Pretty glad I could still remember... Made me remember the heart and soul I put into my music. I excelled more in theory than practical, and I'm glad its translated into something useful I can do for others. Years of learning Augmented 5ths, Appoggiaturas, Italian terms and Compound duple time have come into use...

2. Rapunzel

A wonderful movie... Typical Disney plot arrangement, but had an extremely powerful climax scene that sealed everything into a nice package. Couldn't really appreciate the songs, but I suppose it creates an element of Disney-ness. Its the kind of movie you'd take your significant other to... But then the reality hits you: relationships aren't ever that perfect unfortunately. Despite that I enjoyed it thoroughly... Appreciate animated movies better than acted movies personally.

3. Soccer

Singapore's defeat at the hands of Vietnam was really horrible to watch... Actually even the previous matches were all pretty difficult to stomach. From the standpoint of a Singaporean and someone who really believed that Singapore had the technical ability to be able to make it far in the tournament, it was utterly disappointing.

The first match against the Philippines we scored fortuitously against the run of play, but ended up drawing, the second we had so many chances against Myanmar but could never capitalize until the end, and the Vietnam game we could never build up any momentum due to sloppy passing, or perhaps a lack of composure.

What an awful campaign. Seems like teams around the region are improving well though. Had high hopes for our team...

That's all for this post. More to come.

Mighty Is The Power Of The Cross

2010-12-08T14:08:00.003+08:00

Getting slightly busy in terms of church stuff... For the next couple of weeks have got quite a bit of things to complete in order of priority:

1. Prep worship
2. Prep announcements for Sunday
3. Compile results for YE survey
4. Talk to members about leaders training
5. Talk to JS and Snd about YE graduation

Besides that a couple more meetings for YE next year are coming up, quite importantly on the music ministry side. The past two weeks we've been having meetings on Tuesdays to firm up the program and come up with appropriate themes, and I must say I'm excited about next year.

For leisure, Dragon Ball GT is coming to an end, with 12 eps left. And for Eternal Sonata I've defeated the most difficult boss in the bonus dungeon, all that's left is to complete the game and then start on the encore mode. Besides that, have started playing a new fb game by square enix, makers of the FF series. Knights of the Crystals is its name. Any FF fan out there want to join? Let me know and I'll send an invite.

The year's pretty much ending soon, and everything around is just reminding me of the grace of God. For worship planning to sing one of the songs in my mixpod: Mighty is the Power of the Cross. Without Christ's death for me, I never would've been where I am today. And I'm thankful for every single day that I can live on this earth and touch others with His love.

MIGHTY IS THE POWER OF THE CROSS

What can take a dying man and raise him up to life again?
What can heal a wounded soul?
What can make us white as snow?
What can fill the emptiness?
What can mend our brokenness?
Brokenness

Mighty, awesome, wonderful
Is the holy cross
Where the Lamb laid down His life
To lift us from the fall
Mighty is the power of the cross

What restores our faith in God?
What reveals the Father's love?
What can lead the wayward home?
What can melt a heart of stone?
What can free the guilty ones
What can save and overcome?
Overcome

It's a miracle to me
and It's still a mystery
It's a miracle to me
The power of God
For those who believe

Thank You for the cross
Love the cross
So Powerful
What can take a dying man?
And raise him up to life again?
Worship You Jesus
By your wounds we are healed
By your wounds we are saved
Mighty is the power of the cross
Thank You Jesus for the Holy cross

Seven

2010-12-04T11:05:00.003+08:00

As the year winds down... Saturdays are starting to free themselves up. Today's the first saturday in a long time I've got no appointments or outings to keep, and it does feel good, even empowering in a way.

Well over the week got started on Dragon Ball GT, which essentially is a 64 ep filler spin off of Dragon Ball and Dragon Ball Z, and lacks the character development and drive of the previous 2 series because of a change in the author.

Also another series called NANA about the tough, materialistic, painful and depressing life in Japan through the eyes of 2 20 year old girls who meet fortuitously on the train to Tokyo and again when they search for apartments to purchase, leading them to become great friends and become roommates. A classic example of looking for love and meaning in all the wrong places... And how to avoid living a life like theirs. A bit like a Korean Drama gone emo it seems, at least from my impressions of the first 4 eps.

One of the highlights of the week will have to be going down to the Singapore Conference Hall to support Vanessa for her guzheng comp. Pretty glad to have been invited and seen her play, it shows how deep a friendship we have. I must say I was thoroughly impressed at both the versatility of the guzheng and also by her technical ability. Confidently I would say that she was one of the better few, especially in terms of rhythmic sense and body movement. She was pretty close... Just outside the top 5 imo.

It was a tad dreary from hearing the same song 15 times, but I'm glad I still retained some of my aural skills to be able to tell who was bringing out the dynamics right, whether their instruments were tuned or not. As a result, predicted 4 out of the 5 finalists right! Just a little difference in control, body movement and confidence makes a whole lot of difference.

And the study of 1 Cor has come to an end. Must say I thoroughly enjoyed it, and hope that more book studies like this will come along my way. I'm confident that I know most of the content, and have applied it in my life in some ways. (Being a cell leader helped immensely) The most important theme of all: Love. If the Corinthians had practised that, Paul wouldn't even have had to write such a letter. No divisions, no sexual immorality, no stumbling, no selfishness at the Lord's supper, no lawsuits, no misuses of spiritual gifts, no inpropriety in worship would ever have occured. I hope thats what my cell brought back with them, and most importantly will live out. A life filled with love: for God, for self, and for others.

Owarimashita

2010-11-25T11:07:00.002+08:00

Just finished my jap test, and I'm pretty confident of what I did today. Just around 5 hours to the last paper before I'm free... In 7 hours my very first set of uni exams would be done!

Not too sure what to do whilst on break. Haven't gotten any concrete plans down, except watch anime. The break will probably start off a little rough, with the cough and sore throat that I don't know how I got yesterday. We'll just see how it goes!

Planning a little bit for next sem... But with the declaration of major only available after the module pre-allocation exercise its very likely that I'll need to bid for my modules instead of getting them cheaply, but oh wells thats alright. I think I'm looking a little too forward here so I should just relax about it.

For piano stuff, Raindrop is pretty much done with, except for glitches here and there. So here comes more piano stuff, with Beethoven's woO 40: a variation on a theme and duet with piano and violin, and Chopin's Grande Valse Brilliante op.18 in the works. Also Eternal Sonata is almost finished, with the last dungeon three-quarters done and a bonus dungeon left to complete. Will most likely run through the game a second time to get all the items and bonus stuff...

So thats it. Anime still stagnant at Dragon Ball Z, but given the time I'll be able to complete it soon. Also, some exercise is in order for this break.

Owarimashita!

Optimist

2010-11-19T16:25:00.003+08:00

Amazing stuff... Results for social work are finally back. B- for reflections, 63 for MCQ and a whopping 82 for my portfolio which comprises 25% of the marks. Given my writing style was expecting less. But I guess having the heart is what really matters.

Exams start tmr, and I must say I'm not in the least bit nervous. And the great thing is that I see how what I'm learning has taken shape in my life to impact others. Social work, psych and a little bit of history are helping in my ministry, and jap is definitely helping in terms of friendships and hobbies. And I also see how the things that have happened in the past are helping me today, being a CGL has definitely helped in the approach of using social work concepts, and my past as a maths student and science student is helping immensely with psych and stats.

The past was bright, and the future too is bright. What a wonderful life and ministry. =D Looks like I'm at the peak of optimism this week. Exams here I come!

God! Let Me Praise You

2010-11-17T01:00:00.002+08:00

God! Let me praise You
By taking an active role in my corner of Your Creation,
And my filling the area in which I live with
Your light, warmth, love and happiness.
God! Let me praise You
By brightening the lives of those around me,
And encouraging them with such words as
"I love you," "Thanks," and "I forgive you."
God! Let me praise You
By sharing with others everything You've given me,
And being the first in a group to offer
A smile, hug, condolence, and helping hand.
God! Let me praise You
By fighting back gloom when it surrounds me,
And not being contagious whenever I'm feeling
Discouraged, upset, lonely and disappointed.
God! Let me praise You
By turning to You at every moment of every day,
And acknowledging Your love for me with
My words, actions, thoughts, and prayers.

Taken from Rick Christian's Devotions for Students.

=D

Anniversary

2010-11-11T15:55:00.003+08:00

Today marks one year since I've ORDed, and its a reminder of the things that I've had to go through in the 12 months for me to arrive here, where I am in uni, just 2 weeks away (9 days to be exact) from exams.

The journey's been pretty straight, rough at times, but still God has guided me through. SERVE was a brand new experience, becoming a BS and worship leader and uni certainly has been good. I've matured a lot since then, especially in my spiritual walk and my independence.

Happy ORD anniversary!

All my lessons have been wrapping up, and I feel considerably better since the irritable mood on tuesday. As the trials come they don't seem so big anymore because there's a way bigger God with me.

So, next week's study break... I'll do exactly what its name says, study, then have a break, then study, then have a break. The exams aren't really whats forefront in my mind, but thats just me I guess. There are a lot more important things to think about and be involved in. No worries I'll still work hard though.

Blemish

2010-11-09T20:35:00.002+08:00

Considerably irritated by the fact that I've not been getting important emails because people are still sending stuff to my old account... Its not as if I hadn't told people to switch my email address... As a result I'm not too sure what I have to do with regards to a lot of my ministry work for this month, and I'm absolutely not going to accept giving God shoddy work because of a lack of information. So SEND ME THOSE EMAILS!!! Gah. To soccermugger@gmail.com in case any of you still don't know.

Besides that, the next 3 days will be pretty difficult in terms of nerves. Wednesday there's a jap essay presentation in lecture, Thursday is Jap oral test and Friday is Jap speech in tutorial. 3 occasions having to speak publicly and be judged on it, all in a row.

Preparing for worship on top of that, and also coordinating cell when nothing has been firmed up yet... On the 20th is church leaders meeting, 15 or 16th is YE leaders meeting... Adding these things makes it a whole lot more difficult. And plus the email thing! Just thinking about it makes me mad... How am I supposed to prep for the 15th/16th and 20th without any info?

Once again, I suppose God is alright with me not having the info but just preparing with all I've got for His glory. However I can't forgive myself if anything were to go horribly wrong and if there'll be adverse consequences. Don't want to offer up anything with blemish...

Satisfaction

2010-11-04T12:05:00.003+08:00

And so I've collected both my essays that I've submitted, and I must say I'm pretty glad at the results I've gotten, given my not so good writing style, and being a science student by nature. My content is usually pretty good, but the writing style lets me down. Essays are just not my forte, so I've still got to improve, but I've gotten B for my psych essay, and B+ for my history essay, which I'm totally satisfied with. Feeling blessed at the moment...

I've been through a couple of "final tutorials" for the semester already, most notably Social Work, Psychology and History. Must say that it ended on a good note, and I've contributed pretty well to the discussions. Overall this semester, I believe I've done my best and God knows. Final jap and stats tutorials are on friday next week.

Don't know how many times I've said this, but I feel totally enveloped by God in His love and blessings. This sem has been great. Praise God! =D

So now I've got a 4 hr break until stats lecture. Cos there's no more history tutorial this week. I'll just spend it relaxing and mug later tonight.

6th

2010-11-01T18:55:00.002+08:00

Happy birthday to my blog! Its its 6th birthday!

In psych lecture now, today's topic is abnormal psychology, so we're leaning about certain medical conditions like mania, schizophrenia, depression etc etc. With Kah Kay and her friend Eileen!

Hello hello! Happy birthday to Ben's blog!
It feels weird to be blogging from someone else's blog. But yeah, haven't been blogging since A level. Really missed it. Lecture starting. Gtg byes! :) - Eileen

2nd time posting. xD kk here... the psych lecture is reallyyyyyyyyyyyy psychooooooooo~. im sooo tired alr. bet ben is also as tired as me... =/ the lecturer seems to be quite a fun (handsome since he is an angmoh? i cant see clearly.. )person... but im obviously not paying attention right.. xD ben is coughing badly. this post sld remind him to rest more and maybe take cough med. xD okok~ typing too much. returning back to ben. :)

Haha leftover phlegm from the haze. And its been a long day. Anyways thats all for today, beginning to study for my final exams starting from today: beginning with revision with stats once I get home. Later!